Adulthood; A New Beginning

Today marks the day I officially enter adulthood.

But I am a lost 21 year old. Ask me what I want to do, I'll say I don't know. Ask me what I like to do, I'll say I don't know. 20 or 21, the additional year does not make me any wiser.

I always feel jealous when people are working hard towards their goal. I feel lost seeing how some are able to find their passion at very young ages and are beginning to harvest the fruits of their effort. Take my boys for example, made their debut in the music industry in 2008 after a year or two as trainees and their popularity is peaking. But these boys are still so young; Onew (1989), Jonghyun (1990), Key and Minho (1991), Taemin (1993).

Look at me. I don't know what I was fooling around with when these boys had already made up their mind on being singers. I don't know what I was wasting my time on when these boys were juggling between school and dance lessons, vocal lessons, language lessons etc as a trainee. I still don't know what I'm doing when these boys are now sweeping girls of all different ages and nationalities off their feets.

Recently, my love for writing seems to be making a comeback. I used to love to write during my school days. I wrote unrealistic stories and I remember my classmates asking me to write faster after reading what I have written. I have once wanted to become a writer, be it a journalist or an author, I wanted to write.

But things died down after school and I begin to harvest love for travelling. I had wanted to become an air hostess because of that. But life doesn't always go your way. Things change and we have to adapt to it. So here I am.

But I have realised these days that my love for writing and travelling have never left me. And now that I'm a year older, I want to make a change to my life. I want to be able to look back when I turn 22 and say that I love what I'm doing.

I have started trying to do that. Its not easy, definitely, but atleast I'm taking a step forward by trying. I believe that God gives us choices in life and it is up to us to make the decisions that will decide our fate.

Happy birthday to me. Next year, this day, I hope that what I've wished for will come true.