Sweet Innocence

YOUR HELP IS MUCH APPRECIATED!

2011-12-29T13:50:00.002+08:00

I know its pretty abandoned here..but for the few of you who drops by for whatever reasons (which I'm sure its not because you love me), please help me out! I promise a very honest post soon.

I am in the midst of gathering information on the mobile ticketing service in Japan. I'm not sure if its used for every event but all events and concerts by SHINee uses this method.

This is the site: http://portal.tickebo.jp/pc/en/

For those who have used it before or have friends in Japan who knows of this, please get their advice. I need to know if it is a must to use a Japan phone and Japanese number to apply for tickets or if foreign/overseas numbers and phones can apply as well. I also need to know if I get chosen, can I allocate the tickets to foreign phones or must it be a Japan phone. I'm using Galaxy S2, my friends iPhone.

Next, for those of you who have ordered or know anyone who ordered SHINee World Concert DVD and do not intend to go for the Japan Arena Tour, please give your code to me. The special code comes with the DVD and is needed to apply for a chance to get a concert ticket.

Right now, there are 4 of us who are desperate to get our butts there, so the more codes we get, the more chances we have to buy the ticket! Yes, the code only gives you a chance to buy the ticket if you are chosen because of the massive demand. SO PLEASE SPREAD THE NEWS AROUND AND HELP US POOR GIRLS MAKE THIS DREAM A REALITY!

The period to apply using the DVD code is from 11th-20th January 2012 only. The DVD release date is on the 11th which is why I'm asking for it right now. The moment you get your DVD, you need to give me your code already.

PLEASE HELP MEEEEEE THANKS!

10th December 2011: Singapore's Pink Ocean Embraces 9 Angels

2011-12-19T20:18:00.007+08:00

I promised a proper review. So here I am. All are based on Day 2 concert and I picked out certain songs only because I realised that if I talked about every song in the setlist, I would be repeating myself over and over with the words 'gorgeous', 'beautiful', 'amazing'.

Here goes!

'The Boys'

I remember listening to this song at first and I was like..WHUT?! This song was released in Korean and English. It portrayed a totally different Girls' Generation. The English version marked their debut in the US music industry. The girls performed the English version during the concert and I take back all my words regarding how I don't like this song.

Watching it live made all the difference. I'm sure nothing beats the MAMA 2011 remix version but the normal version was also a sight to be seen. It was strong and powerful and all the long notes from Taeyeon, Seohyun and Jessica were perfection.

'Devil's Cry + Run Devil Run'

This was one of my favourite parts of the concert. Taeyeon sang her lungs out to Devil's Cry as an introduction to Run Devil Run. And OMG, you have to watch the fancam! Eventhough the fancam doesn't do her justice but OMG I'm telling you, her rock blood totally took over and it was beyond amazing. The feeling of total awe I felt was like seeing Onew performing 'Nessun Dorma' live. Thats the best way to describe it because both, do not do full justice to the performer on fancams and is just beyond godlike when witnessing it live.

The girls performed a different version of Run Devil Run, which incorporated the legendary first generation idols, Shinhwa's T.O.P in the middle of the song. It was a really creative way to change the song because it matched really well. If you have not listened to RDR before, you may even be fooled to think that it was part of the song.

'Into The New World'

Their debut song. The song that boasts the amazing coordination of nine. Just like SHINee's debut song 'Noona Neomu Yeppeo Replay', SNSD debuted with a song that proves that they are ready to take on the world. Sleek dance moves and pure vocals, 9 girls from different backgrounds take their first step into making their dreams come true. It was slightly disappointing that this song wasn't the one that shot the girls to fame but everyone would have to agree with me that this is the one song that Sones want to witness live.

And I witnessed it live. TWICE! Seeing them perform this song right infront of my eyes made me think of how much they have changed, how far they have come. Besides SHINee, SNSD was the only other group I really paid attention too. And to be able to see how they grow up and mature, in terms of vocals and looks, is really amazing.

'Danny Boy'

Sunny, Tiffany, Jessica, Seohyun and Taeyeon covered 'Danny Boy' and the harmony of all 5 of them were heaven to my ears. Watch the fancam and you will understand 50% of what I was listening to. The live performance was beyond words.

'Complete'

If you didn't already read about the fan event on my previous post, I will tell you about it again. We were supposed to hold up a piece of paper that says 'So Nyeo Shi Dae makes our lives complete' at the end of the song. In the middle of the song, some of them got confused and held it up, so everyone else followed. It was such a beautiful sight because not only were the ones in mosh pits holding it, the whole stadium held the same piece of paper at the same time. And the girls were on the verge of tears. I cried. Even watching the fancam now, I can still cry.

The girls came out again after the song and asked us to show them the paper again. They said that 'Sones makes So Nyeo Shi Dae's lives complete'. =')

You see SG Shawols, you should regret it when you shot down my idea of holding up a paper with a hand drawn heart during SWCSG just because you were afraid of being blocked for a few seconds. You see how Sones made it amazing? It was all your fault for disregarding my awesome idea. Tsk.

Solo Stages

Solo stages were divided into two categories; sexy and innocent. I preferred the innocent ones over the sexy performances. You can google who performed what yourself. I'm going to just mention the ones that left a strong impression.

Firstly, Taeyeon and Tiffany's duet of cabaret 'Lady Marmalade'. Sex kittens on the prowl! The performance was sexy, playful, confident and it showed a wide range of strong vocals altogether. And they can turn any straight girl gay. (No, I'm still very much into guys because Minho is too smexy to give up on)

Jessica covered 'Almost', sweeping us off our feets with her beautiful vocals topped with her playing the piano at the beginning. It was my favourite out of all the solo stages. It was a really beautiful performance and her vocals filled with emotions just melted me.

Seohyun performed 'Stuff Like That There' showing her vocals and tap dance skills. It was entertaining. It was like watching a musical. And I always have this weird feeling when watching Seohyun sing. Shes so young but her voice is so powerful and deep that it amazes me.

The other solo stage that left a great impression on me was Sooyoung's cover of Michael Buble's 'Sway'. The really attractive point is that she was latin dancing while singing the song. I'm not a professional when it comes to dance names but yea, latin dance sounds appropriate. And her legs are so amazingly long and she was just stunning! STUNNINGLY STUNNING! She took my breathe away, nuff' said.

Summary; The Good and The Bad

The concert was amazing. We laughed, we cried, we sang, we screamed, we spazzed. The girls are all gorgeous. I used to think Hyoyeon was not pretty (sorry Sones) but I was proven wrong when I saw her in the flesh. She is really pretty! It was also nice when the Sones I was with chanted 'Kibum Kibum', 'SHINee SHINee' and 'Taemin Taemin' during the TaeKey video intermission. I was really happy it could happen at a Soshi solo concert and to have Sones do it, thank you. =)

I got to see the girls' dorky sides and Taeyeon's ahjumma laugh and Tiffany's gorgeous eyesmile. I saw Im choding and Kim choding. I witnessed Sunny's aegyo (and almost died, please read my previous post!). Seohyun was so cute and Sooyoung was fly kissing everywhere. Jessica pout and sexy Yuri!

The downside would be that the concert setlist was adapted from the Japan Arena Tour setlist, with a few changes here and there. Which means that they performed alot of their songs from their first Japanese album. And some of the songs, they performed in the Korean version which was never released so it was basically, my first time listening to it. It was a pity that they sang 'Let It Rain' in Korean because I memorized the Japanese version so I couldn't sing along during the concert.

Another downside is they didn't perform alot of ballads, which was disappointing. As much as I enjoy their dance tracks, I really love their ballads. The harmony among them 9 and the sweet distinct vocals of each member was something I really looked forward to. And there were a tad bit too many video intermissions.

Other than that, the concert was amazing.

Girls' Generation Asia Tour 2011: Singapore 9th & 10th December

2011-12-18T22:20:00.006+08:00

So many things happened, I don't know where to start or how to start. I thought of not blogging about the concert but it was to me, another dream come true and I really want to note it down before it fades away.

8th September 2011, I took the 10.45am bus to Singapore. My heart pounding so hard and my mind kept praying that nothing will take it away from me. 10th September 2011, I witnessed perfection beyond perfection, I had the best day of my life.

Exactly 3 month later, 8th December 2011, I took the 10.45am bus to Singapore. Ironic how even the day was the same. I felt the pinch to my heart as I approached the neighbour country. The only thing different this time round was that I didn't spend the night at the stadium with hundreds of unknown girls and that on the 9th was also a concert day.

Girls' Generation aka SNSD aka Soshi. I honestly didn't feel the excitement. I was too busy thinking of the memories I shared with my boys 3 months ago.

I went to the stadium in the morning with my brother. Met up with his Sone friends and just wasted time there.

Got tagged at 11am. I was at mosh pit Pen C. Day 1 concert started at 8pm so we practically spent the whole day at the stadium in the queue waiting. Ate, sat, lied down, got wet from the rain, bla bla bla.

Part of Pen C queue in the morning. Okay..I don't know what to write. =/

My view for the first night. The 'concert notice tag' is the walkway stage infront of me, which is freaking near. I thought SHINee World Concert stage was near but this is even nearer. I could just reach out my hand and could practically touch them if they were to reach out their hand a little too.

What can I say about the first night? It was great. YoonA stood right infront of me a whole lot..and I really mean A WHOLE LOT! I stared at her the most from head to toe and head to toe again and again. She is like a walking doll. She is as her title, a goddess. And shes so blardy thin, I feel like she may break anytime. Okay, all 9 girls were flawless. As everyone calls them, the 9 angels.

The concert started with them sitting in a diamond. The first song, Sowoneul Malhebwa (Genie), one of my favourites. Donned in white laced shorts and matching white laced fitted blouse, they were flawless.

This was my banner for the first night. It says 'Choi Min Ho Sengil' meaning 'Choi Minho birthday'. I was there as a Shawol that night. 9th December was his birthday and I wanted to make it matter. He is afterall, the love of my life (regardless of how stupid you may think I am, he really is and this fact will not change even if you put a gun to my head).

The girls saw my banner, I saw the look in their eyes. I think Sooyoung was speechless because the girl next to me was holding a printed 'Choi Sooyoung' banner while I was holding a 'Choi Minho' banner. YoonA saw, she pointed at my banner and she gave a small chuckle. You know how she has this weird smile/laugh where one eye cringes first before the other making one eye look smaller than the other? I saw that so many times. And her face is so small and her smile is so amazing! And I'm not even a YoonAddict!

Okay well, the first night I was too busy trying to gain their attention, hoping they will wish Minho happy birthday but although they gave me the attention I was seeking, I failed to make them wish him. =(

Day 2, 10th December 2011, Singapore Indoor Stadium, 6pm. Exactly 3 months ago, I was at the same place seeing my boys live at the exact same time. Luckily, my brothers friends were there to distract me for thinking of my boys to the point where I couldn't enjoy myself. It was the last night, I told myself. It was a pink night, not pearl aqua. I repeated to myself that it was Soshi night, no one else.

Luckily I was in Pen B. Our tickets were supposed to be Pen A, the exact same Pen 3 months ago where I shared those special moments with each of my boys. Eventhough the layout of the stage was completely different, it was still uncomfortable to me. Luckily, my brother exchanged our tickets for Pen B instead.

The waiting for the second night was so much shorter because we were allowed to go in at 4.30pm. I was busy trying to think of what to write on my foam heart to the very last minute. I eventually finished my masterpiece inside the stadium itself and I was so glad I made it because thanks to my masterpiece, I got hell of a fanservice from my bias. =)

Day 2, I was there as a Sone. I watched the girls with my whole heart, I screamed for them, I shouted the fanchants perfectly, I was so amazed at myself. The only time I switched back to being a Shawol was when Key and Taemin appeared on the intermission video. I couldn't help myself, I just screamed my lungs out for my 2 boys. While others cheered when they saw the girls, I screamed when my boys appeared and yes, people looked at me weirdly but hey, I'm proud of my Shawol blood.

This paper was given out before we went into the stadium. We were supposed to hold it up at the end of 'Complete' but some of them made a mistake and held it up in the middle of the song. So when one person holds it up, everyone else followed. We were all holding the paper up and singing along to the song. I felt my tears threatening to leave my eyes but I held it back in. And that was when the song ended, I turned to look around and saw that not only those in moshpits were holding the paper but the whole stadium was holding it, I started crying. It was such a beautiful scene, even the girls were almost in tears. Watch the fancam, it is just so amazing, I cried watching the fancam, knowing that I was one of them. =')

My last minute masterpiece! You know what?! Sunny saw it and pointed at it! And then she pointed at it for the second time and gave me an aegyo smile and then I did a peace sign to her and she freaking did it to me back! ZOMG I TELL YOU I MELTED I ALMOST FAINTED I WAS LIKE OMG SUNNY!!!! ZOMG SPAZZ MAX I TELL YOU SHE SO BLARDY CUTE HER AEGYO IS LIKE SUPER MAXIMUM MAKE ANY GIRL GAY AND SHES MINE SHE IS FREAKING MINE AND MINE ALONE!!!

Basically, second night was awesome! The bunch of trolls I was with made the concert even better. And Shawols, we chanted Kibum Kibum, SHINee SHINee, Taemin Taemin when TaeKey video came up okay! AT A SOSHI CONCERT! Second night fanservice from all the girls! YoonA smiled and waved at me! She so pretty I die! Sooyoung fly kiss fly kiss! Seohyun zomgggggggg Hyoyeon damn friendly damn cute! I mean like I can't remember but all of them gave me something! =')

I just realised that I didn't talk much about anything. It was basically me just spazzing all the way. I need to watch the fancams of the whole concert to put the pieces together. So, I promise I'll blog about the vocals, the solos, the stage performances and all that.

For now, theres been news that Soshi is bringing the concert to Bangkok in February next year. Well loves, you can expect me there if the news is true. Love lots.

PS: For this Singapore trip, I really want to thank the Sones that 'did not ignore me'. LOL. You guys really made this trip especially entertaining. Thanks for trolling during the concert. It wouldn't have been so much fun without you all there. =)

EXCITED!!!!

2011-11-06T13:57:00.003+08:00

Hello loves!

Its been awhile since I've updated. Its been even longer since I've blogged properly. And I'm sorry to say that this post will not be anything good either.

Honestly, my life has been nothing special. I wake up in the morning, go to work, come home, eat and sleep. Thats all I've been doing which actually resulted in a fatter me which also explains why I haven't been taking any pictures at all. I should change my name from MissPhotoSlut to Minho'sRapist now (Inside joke..if you have been following me on Twitter, you may get the idea).

Anyway, I'm not sure if there are still people who bother to visit this abandoned blog but if there are, thank you. =)

My point is..

I WILL BE SEEING GIRLS' GENERATION LIVE NEXT MONTH!!!!

I have managed to secure tickets to watch the 9 angels' solo concert Into The New World 2 in Singapore on the 9th and 10th of December! I'm so excited!

If you didn't know, Soshi were supposed to be the first Kpop group that I was supposed to watch. The Bangkok stop for ITNW1 but the concert was cancelled due to the fight between the red and yellow.

But I think it is a blessing in disguise.

At that time, I wasn't a fan of SNSD, I was more to being a Sunshiner (Sunny fan). At that time, I didn't like all the members. At that time, I couldn't be bothered about the fanchants.

But this time, I love all 9 angels. I see how each member is different and I embrace them for it. And this time, I am going as a fan of all 9. It won't matter who stands infront of me, I will still scream for them. And I'm so freaking excited I feel like I'm not sure where this post is going but I AM FREAKING GOING TO WITNESS AWESOME VOCALS AND GORGEOUS GIRLS AND HAVE TO FREAKING STARE AT MY BOYS AFTER THAT JUST TO MAKE SURE I'M TOTALLY STRAIGHT!!

I will blog of course and may even manage a few pictures if I manage to keep my mind straight. If I were to be in awe from start til end like how I was when watching my boys live, then you will just get another long fanaccount filled with nothing but words. Of course, the details will be amazingly juicy (if the girls' fan service are great), like all my other 'witnessing live Kpop performances' posts.

Love lots! GG~

Proud

2011-10-26T17:33:00.003+08:00

Have you all read the reviews of SMTown Live in New York?!

If you haven't, read this by New York Times. The writer said that SHINee were among the night's strongest vocalists!!

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/10/25/arts/music/shinee-and-south-korean-k-pop-groups-at-madison-square-garden-review.html

Omg..I'm so happy with the reviews and I don't care what haters of Kpop are saying, but you cannot deny the fact that SMTown is dominating the world!

They dominated Korea and have moved on to Japan and are working their way through US. Its a step by step process and despite not debuting in most of the countries before, their fans are worldwide and the numbers are amazing.

SMTown is making history everywhere!

PS: I always see international fans crying when they see my boys live. For some reason, the cameraman always captures those fans in tears while watching the boys perform. But I understand how they feel perfectly. That unbelievable feeling of seeing them in person and listening to their amazing vocals live. I was also one who couldn't hold back my tears when I saw them for the first time. =')

Presents

2011-10-16T21:54:00.003+08:00

Okay I know this is really really really late but..better late than never, right? Hehe.. =X There are others but I'm too lazy to take pictures of it so.. =P

From my dad.

From CK, Mark and the person who made my dreams come true and have always helped me pre-order my Japan albums, Guoxiang.

From the friends who celebrated my birthday with me as mentioned in the previous post.

From James.

Anyway, I've been really lazy these days. Besides going to work, sandwiched in a train and being stuck in a jam everyday, I haven't been doing much. Its the same routine everyday and sometimes it pisses me off..but theres not much I can do to change anything at the moment. My life is pretty dull and colorless these days.

Owh, my license has finally been approved..like after 5 months, I am finally able to do what I was employed to do, which is really lame and I'm already bored. And they're starting a night shift next month which is by turns which also means that I have to be a part of it. Seriously, FML. I mean, it took me all my school and university years to be able to finally get rid of my chronic insomnia problem and to be able to sleep and now they want to mess up everything.

Taking turns would mean one week you wake up at 5.30am and the next week some later time. Nonsense. I'm sorry but I'm too young for this kind of shit. I need a life so stop screwing around with whatever bit of it I have left.

But then again, all I can do is whine and rant because its not like my boss is going to listen to me. I'm already looking for a way out, can you imagine that? Everyone tells me to quit and find a different job if I really despise it so much but I can't. I'm not the kind of person to just give up whenever I feel like it, thats not me. And besides, I have verbally promised to stay for atleast a year..the least I can do is to stay true to my promise..it makes my resume look nicer to instead of having to quit after 5 months.

Sigh. Monday tomorrow. Here we go again.

Turning 21

2011-10-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

This is a non-Kpop related post as a bribe to those few loyal readers that I have that are not Kpop fans. Bare with me, alright? You know you love me. Teehee~

Anyway, Sunday 25th of September 2011, I met up with Monashians at Sunway Pyramid for dinner. It was my 'surprise' birthday dinner but as usual for our group, everyone always finds out. The day before that, I remember telling my mum 'Owh, they probably want to celebrate my birthday'. =P

My point is that they wanted to celebrate my 21st birthday for me. It was 3 days earlier (my birthday is on the 28th, if you didn't know) and since most of us are working already, they did it earlier.
Dinner at Delicious. Food wat good, company was great. I honestly enjoyed myself laughing and catching up with these people whom I have spent my university days with. Without them, I would probably be eating and doing assignments alone the way I have during my 1st semester in my 1st year of Degree. Yes, it was sad.

Anyway, there were 2 others who celebrated their birthdays on that as well. It was actually pretty funny. After dinner, we went to Starbucks to play a round of Monopoly Deal before heading home for work the next day.

I don't know why I don't have a solo picture with Queenie and Pao Li but thats everyone there. Eventhough this post is late, I just want to thank these people who celebrated my birthday with me once again. Kim Seng, Anderson, Shin Yi, Pui Yee, Eng Chuan, Queenie and Pao Li! THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR MAKING MY 21st A MEMORABLE ONE! =')

This was when they told me they got me Samyang ramyun for my birthday present. LOL. Presents in another post.

On Wednesday, 28th September, I took 3 hours off from work to head home early. Before that my colleagues 'surprised' me with a cake. Yes, I expected it because I could see them secretly discussing about something. LOL. At night, I went for dinner with my parents in Umai-ya, Puchong. One of the best Japanese meals ever. The food is so much better than the branch in Damansara Uptown.

Anyway, I'm 21! Love lots!

Adulthood; A New Beginning

2011-09-28T14:13:00.002+08:00

Today marks the day I officially enter adulthood.

But I am a lost 21 year old. Ask me what I want to do, I'll say I don't know. Ask me what I like to do, I'll say I don't know. 20 or 21, the additional year does not make me any wiser.

I always feel jealous when people are working hard towards their goal. I feel lost seeing how some are able to find their passion at very young ages and are beginning to harvest the fruits of their effort. Take my boys for example, made their debut in the music industry in 2008 after a year or two as trainees and their popularity is peaking. But these boys are still so young; Onew (1989), Jonghyun (1990), Key and Minho (1991), Taemin (1993).

Look at me. I don't know what I was fooling around with when these boys had already made up their mind on being singers. I don't know what I was wasting my time on when these boys were juggling between school and dance lessons, vocal lessons, language lessons etc as a trainee. I still don't know what I'm doing when these boys are now sweeping girls of all different ages and nationalities off their feets.

Recently, my love for writing seems to be making a comeback. I used to love to write during my school days. I wrote unrealistic stories and I remember my classmates asking me to write faster after reading what I have written. I have once wanted to become a writer, be it a journalist or an author, I wanted to write.

But things died down after school and I begin to harvest love for travelling. I had wanted to become an air hostess because of that. But life doesn't always go your way. Things change and we have to adapt to it. So here I am.

But I have realised these days that my love for writing and travelling have never left me. And now that I'm a year older, I want to make a change to my life. I want to be able to look back when I turn 22 and say that I love what I'm doing.

I have started trying to do that. Its not easy, definitely, but atleast I'm taking a step forward by trying. I believe that God gives us choices in life and it is up to us to make the decisions that will decide our fate.

Happy birthday to me. Next year, this day, I hope that what I've wished for will come true.

Korean Music Wave 2011 in Malaysia

2011-09-25T11:02:00.007+08:00

Yesterday 24th of September was KMW 2011 in Malaysia which was held in Stadium Merdeka. Artistes line up were FT Island, 4 Minute, UKISS, Park Jungmin (SS501), GD&TOP, Seungri and Teen Top.

I planned on skipping the event because the line up was quite..lame..and I have spent too much this month already, thanks to my boys, which I have totally no regrets at all. The only groups I wanted to see were FT Island and 4 Minute. It would have been better if GD&TOP and Seungri were there as Big Bang instead of their individual solo or collaborations.

Anyway, thanks to Joshua Ong, I managed to get free RM588 Rock Zone ticket!

The concert started at 7pm but we were atleast 30 minutes late. When we were finding for a parking, I heard FT Island performing! I could hear Hongki rocking the stage to 'Hello Hello' and the crowd was screaming. When we were walking to the stadium, I heard 'Love Love Love'. Sucks that FTI were the first to perform but luckily, I still managed to watch them live for a few other songs. I didn't get to sing 'annyeong iranmal hello hello, ijen kutbye kutbye'. =(

But regardless of that, FTI rocked the stage. They were a great way to start a show, definitely. Hongki may have been tweeting alot of emo tweets lately but he didn't let his personal emotions take over his professionalism. I would pay to watch them perform live again. Vocals and passion, they had it all. Each member stood out in their own way but my bias being Hongki, I focused a little more on him than the rest. He interacted with the crowd as he always does and he sprayed water at those in the rock zone..with his saliva mixed in it..lol.

Next up was rookies, Teen Top, a group that I do not approve of in terms of performance and looks. And after watching their performances yesterday, I feel that they are not such a bad group afterall. There is however, one big problem that will probably be the reason why I will never approve them, which is that..okay I don't know his name and I really don't care. You go see the ugliest person there who sings the most, yea thats the big problem. The rest of the members sounded pretty okay, a little more practice will do, but that particular guy's voice is just weird. Its like a screeching sound that is very uncomfortable to listen to.

And I'm saying this after listening to them perform a ballad so theres no mistake about that. Take that guy off and the group will definitely be able to go further. Ironically, I think that guy is the lead vocalist since he sings the most. Despite that, they still have their fans, which I really don't understand but owh well, different people different standards, right?

UKISS' very own Kevin and Dongho MC-ed together with a Malaysian radio DJ and a Korean radio DJ. They joined their group to take on stage with their newly released 'Neverland'. It was the first time they performed the song out of the country, but its not like they've been promoting in many countries anyway. Okay sorry, I wouldn't know since I don't pay attention to them.

UKISS performed a few of their title songs like 'Bingeul Bingeul', '0330' and 'Manman Hani'. The only song I was looking forward to from the group was '0330'. I think that was a turning point for them where I actually think they are not so bad. UKISS surprised me, honestly. Maybe it was because of the 2 new members that made them a better group altogether. I'm sorry for those who liked the 2 ex members but I'm just being honest. Their vocals are so much better than before and I've paid attention to one of the new guy, Hoon's voice yesterday, and it was solid and powerful. UKISS, with their 2 new members, is a group to watch, if they come out with more songs like '0330' instead of 'Shikkuro'.

I watched 4 Minute for the 3rd time! I love the girls. Cube artistes, as usual, never fail to impress me. Their strong vocals, sexy dance moves and fan service filled every performance nicely. Hyunah was as usual the biggest tease and she looks even more gorgeous than before. Another thing I realised about the group was the maknae, Sohyun. She isn't so shy anymore and her fan service was great. She looks so much prettier than before.

4 Minute performed 'Mirror Mirror', 'Heart to Heart', 'I My Me Mine', 'Muzik' and 'Hot Issue'. I got to watch 'HTH' live! Happy~ There was a technical error after the short talk after 'I My Me Mine'. They were supposed to perform 'Muzik' next but the song that came on was 'I My Me Mine' again. I was actually confused at that point. I thought they were performing the song another time. The girls were calm and they just said 'Nono, Muzik next'. I liked how they converse in simple English and they introduced themselves in English, Malay and Chinese.

After the idol groups, it was time for solos. Park Jungmin took the stage with his title song, 'Not Alone'. The SS501 member sang ballads 'Do You Know?' and 'Everyday is Christmas' from his solo album and also the OST of The Princess' Man. I never paid much attention to SS501 and the only member that I like was Kim Hyunjoong because of his flower boy looks. I was surprised at Park Jungmin's vocals. I stared at him singing his ballads in awe and thought to myself, 'ahh, as expected from a member of SS501'.

If you do not know about the fame of SS501, you should find out. Eventhough the members are under different agencies and they are doing their solos right now, they are still together as SS501 and TripleS, their fans, are still awaiting their comeback as 5. Jungmin was really funny. He did a cute butt dance and got the crowd wild. He waved around occasionally and kept singing with a smile on his face. His voice was really good that sometimes I feel that the sound system is not doing him justice. Park Jungmin was in simple words, a pleasant surprise.

Seungri, Victory, whatever you want to call him, performed next. The maknae of Big Bang worked the crowd. His vocals may be nothing special but you cannot deny his ability to work the crowd. Seungri, famous for his eyebags, looked like a very ordinary guy. Sometimes because hes so short, he gets clouded among his dancers. LOL. I enjoyed his performances despite not liking his songs.

He was funny during the short interview with the MCs. He spoke in simple English but he took some time to reply to every question as if trying to gather all the English he knew to form a sentence. Owh and he said he wants to live in Malaysia instead of coming back to meet the fans for concerts. Yes, his personality is no different from when you watch him on variety shows. Stupid but hilarious.

Fellow group members, GD&TOP, closed the show. Like the maknae of their group, the older ones worked the crowd as well but they did it even better. They got the fans to jump and to dance along to 'High High'. They ran around the stage teasing fans from every side and their energy was endless. TOP is really gorgeous. I don't like Jiyoung's new hairstyle but hes so cute. There was one part where he fooled around with TOP and TOP hugged him. It was such a cute moment.

Just like Seungri, I didn't like GD&TOP's songs but I enjoyed their stage. I really wish that one day I could watch them as Big Bang together with Taeyang and Daesung instead. That would be nice.

The concert ended around 10.20pm. The groups didn't come out together to say their last goodbyes which made my heart sink. It was a really disappointing way to end the concert. They just sang and went off stage and that was the last time you could see them. Probably because they had flights to catch and couldn't stay long. I mean FTI and 4Minute reached Korea early this morning, which shows that they left immediately after performing. Sighh.

Overall, the concert was pretty fun. There were however, fangirls who were not aware of concert etiquettes. You are not supposed to scream when they are singing! There was this girl behind me who was screaming 'OPPA SARANGHAE!' 'BOGOSHIPPEO!' 'OPPAAAAAA!' 'EONNIII!!!' throughout the concert. ARE YOU THERE TO LISTEN TO THEM SING LIVE OR CONFESS YOUR LOVE?!

That girl should thank her lucky stars that it wasn't SHINee performing. I would have smacked her real hard if it was, especially since my boys hate it when fans scream for no reason when they are singing.

Anyway, my pictures all failed. I think its been too long since I last held a camera. LOL. Pictures credits to Joshua. =)

Happy Key's Day!

2011-09-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

I hope you remember how we celebrated your birthday together on the 10th of September 2011, eventhough it was 2 weeks early. Happy birthday, my dearest diva. Thank you for reaching out to us on every single way possible today. =)

Time To Wake Up

2011-09-17T21:25:00.005+08:00

I was watching SHINee World Tokyo at 6pm, the exact time the concert started last week. I thought it would make me feel better but it was different. SWC Tokyo, Jonghyun couldn't dance, I totally forgot. But watching them perform the same songs, my heart broke. I wanted to be there again. All I could think of was 'please bring me back to that night', tearing on and off throughout the show.

Around 7pm, my mum came and told me she wanted to watch the tv. Talk about annoying. You're already feeling like shit and someone comes to make you feel worse. I locked myself in my room and fell asleep in tears listening to their songs.

I woke up at 8.45pm, took a shower and came downstairs at 9pm, exactly the end of the concert. I was thinking, ahh this is when I chase after their van and Onew waves at me with his signature smile. The real concert ended last week and my delusional concert has ended as well.

What happened that night was the best and most precious memory ever but instead of being amazingly happy, I'm having post concert depression. Right now, right here, I'm telling myself its time to wake up. I know that if I let myself continue being this way, I would fall deeper to the point of real depression. I've been there before so I know how it feels like and it feels exactly like what I'm feeling now. I have pulled myself up once before and I'm pulling myself up again today once more.

"정신차려"

I repeated that to myself over and over. I am still repeating it to myself even now. 10th of September 2011 was the best day of my life til date..but it will not stay as the best day of my life forever. I will see my boys again very soon. I will be at another SHINee World Concert very soon. I will scream their names and shout the fanchants again very soon.

My journey does not end here. I believe fate will not troll us, my boys and me.

이젠바로시작이야

I shall leave a picture of Kibummie here that was taken that night.

Last Week, This Day..

2011-09-17T12:33:00.002+08:00

Last week, this day, I met them for the very first time.

Last week, this day, my heart was beating so fast I thought I was having a panic attack.

Last week, this day, I was waving my lightstick being a part of the Pearl Aqua ocean.

Last week, this day, I was screaming the names of the boys who made an impact on my life.

Last week, this day, I was singing along to all 30 songs that they were performing.

Last week, this day, I was doing fanchants for every song that had a fanchant.

Last week, this day, I waved my Minho banner frantically to gain his attention.

Last week, this day, I saw the beautiful Lee Taeyeon.

Last week, this day, Kibummie waved and smiled at me.

Last week, this day, puppy Jjong stared into my eyes for more than 15 seconds.

Last week, this day, Onew grinned when he heard me shout "CHICKEN".

Last week, this day, Taeminnie cheekily grinned when I screamed his name nonstop.

Last week, this day, the love of my life teased me from the start till the end and finally threw me a ball in return.

Last week, this day, I witnessed perfection beyond perfection.

Last week, this day, I cried at the start of the concert, during the concert and after the concert.

Last week, this day, I had eargasm from the amazing vocals of these boys.

Last week, this day, I was in disbelief when I saw their amazing footworks and lightfooted dance skills.

Last week, this day, I sang a birthday song to Key.

Last week, this day, I saw how gorgeous these boys look in person.

Last week, this day, I met my leader Lee Jinki.

Last week, this day, I met my baby Lee Taemin.

Last week, this day, I met my puppysaur Kim Jonghyun.

Last week, this day, I met my diva Kim Kibum.

Last week, this day, I met the love of my life Choi Minho.

Last week, this day, I met SHINee.

Last week, this day, was the best day of my life.

SHINee World Concert Singapore 2011: More Than I Could Imagine

2011-09-13T13:23:00.006+08:00

I'm currently suffering from withdrawal syndrome or post concert depression. So this is what it feels like after realizing a dream. So this is what it feels like after being so near to the people whom you have always thought were so far away..especially with all the interactions with each member.

Who do I start with?

I guess I'll do Kibummie first since he was the first one to stand right in front of me. Everytime he walked pass or stood in front of me, I shouted "KEYYYYYY KIBUM AHHH" and I was sure that he heard me because he did turn to me and wave. KIM KEY WAVED AT ME! And he was looking right into my eyes but because I was holding a Minho banner, he waved, pointed at the banner and then walked away smiling.

We always see gorgeous pictures of him but Kim Kibum in real life is better! Flawless! He really has amazing features and when he smiles, my heart just melted. AND HE WAVED AT ME!! The girl near me was holding the 'Happy Key's Day' banner when he came and he gave us a thumbs up! Omg kyaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

Next is Taeminnie! He was also at my area quite alot and he like his lover hyung, Minho, had a thing for ignoring people. When he was in front of me putting on the wires before flying off, I kept shouting "Taeminniee Taemin ahhh Lee Taemin!!!" and he turned his head towards me slightly and gave out a small grin. And then during Amigo rock version when there was the interval where no one was singing, I screamed his name and he shook his head violently at my side.

My baby is so adorable! Taeminnie is really thin but his muscles are no joke either. Its like muscles wrapped around his tiny bones and thats really hot. He stared at me for a short while and I just spazzed because he had this really sexy charismatic look. And when I caught him laughing during the angel performance, I screamed his name again and he quickly tried to stop laughing which he couldn't. It was so cute! And I can see Tae acne even with the make up. Yes, I was near!

Who else? Puppy Jjong! Jonghyunnie didn't do much but we shared a pretty long time staring into each others' eyes. It was like a staring competition. It was when they were performing 'Graze' with the chairs at the extended stage, which was right in front of me. I was just singing along to the song, waving my lightstick and my banner and enjoying their vocals and great coordination. That was when I caught the puppysaur looking at me.

I caught his eyes and we just stared. He probably found me interesting because I was probably the only one who was singing along to every single song they performed. (As mentioned before, SG Shawols quite fail in being Shawols and there were alot of general Kpop fans) Since the song isn't the happy kind, he had this solemn serious look on his face and he just stared at me. I didn't know what to do but I just stared back. It was definitely more than 15 seconds before I did a 'mehrong' to him and he gave out a smile before turning his face to the other side! Spazz!!!

Onew! He was so cute! His smile made me smile. Onew didn't really stop in front of me much so the time I had to get his attention was limited. When he walked near, I was shouting his name and I'm sure he heard me but he didn't turn much. I got so desperate I screamed "CHICKEN!" which he started smiling like a fool. He didn't turn his head to smile at me but the moment I screamed it, he litted up.

At the end of the concert, when their van was leaving the stadium, I ran after the van and that was when he looked at me, smiled and waved at me! I was at the spot where I was the only one while the rest was running over so he directed it at me! MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! My chicken lover..=')

Lastly, the love of my life, Minho. As all of you already know, Minho is my bias. He means so much to me because his existence has brought me to a whole new level. It was because of him that I started looking at the whole group and became part of SHINee World. Because of him, I found my strength and motivation, I found SHINee. Seeing him perform live was more than enough to me. I never thought that there would be anything else. I never dared to ask for more. But that night, 10th September 2011, what happened was something I never thought could happen.

I was holding a Minho banner. Everytime he walked pass me, I screamed "MINHOOOO!!" and kept waving the banner so that he could see. He noticed me since the start of the concert because most of them near me were not holding banners, so I was very easy to notice. And I always shouted his name when no one was singing, only the background music was on so I was loud enough for him to hear. And I saw him turn his face slightly everytime I screamed his name, it was obvious.

BUT HE KEPT IGNORING ME! It was like he knows how much I want him but he kept pretending not to see and not to hear. Even till they ran around during 'Bodyguard' and threw balls at fans, he came right in front of me and threw the balls really hard to the back area. No one in front got a chance to even get close to the balls. And finally the song ended. They went back to the main stage to sing 'One'. I was in tears at that time not because he ignored me but because the concert was almost over.

After the song, they walked out to say their thank yous. They walked towards my side to bow first and when he was walking over, I screamed for the very last time "MINHOOOOOOO!!!!!", waving my banner. He was walking over, bend down to pick 2 blue balls up and before he even stood up properly, he just randomly threw 1 of it to the fans at the back. And then he walked towards me, right in front of me, smiled and threw the ball gently into my hands!!!

I know some of you may say that it was random and even from the angle of the fancam, it looked random but I'm telling you, from my view, it was obvious that he threw it to me. If my hand was not out there waving the banner, the ball would have dropped to the ground. He threw it softly right into my hands! I didn't even try catching it. And he smiled at me before throwing. He noticed me! THE LOVE OF MY LIFE ACTUALLY NOTICED ME AND HE TEASED ME THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE CONCERT! THAT BAD BOY!!!!!! T_T

The end of the concert. I walked out in disbelief and started to cry. I sat on the floor outside, staring at the ball and crying. I saw the girls whom I had queued with, from my group and from other groups and everyone was happy for me. The girl next to me told them that it was obvious Minho threw it to me on purpose and I cried even more because it wasn't just me thinking randomly. Many of us came out in tears, we hugged each other and cried together, spazzing about what the boys did.

It was really amazing since we all basically only met for 2 days but we could exchange hugs and cry together as if we have known each other for a long time. Those who were general Kpop fans came out in tears and said that they became Shawols after the concert. My dear boys, making girls cry without even trying. And you know what, my boys are amazingly gorgeous! They are so good looking, they take my breathe away. They are just perfection. The best looking boys I have ever seen.

It was the best day of my life. I have decided to change my dream of travelling the world to watching my boys as often as possible no matter where they are. Since they are travelling everywhere, its like realizing 2 dreams together, watching them and travelling.

Funny how my mum asks me if it was worth the amount of money that I have spent in this 4 short days. It was worth everything, the overnighting, the chaos, the pushing, the money, everything. It was worth more than everything that I had to give to see them. It was more than I could imagine.

SHINee World Concert Singapore 2011: Witnessing Perfection

2011-09-12T12:19:00.005+08:00

If you are short or weak, moshpits are really not suitable for you. Before the concert began, everyone kept pushing and I was struggling to keep my spot because I believed that my spot was one of the best. I could see them perform at the main stage and I could see them walk towards the end of the extended stage. My spot however, was a tad bit further away from the stage than the other places because the wiring controls were there but I was still really near.

The lights dimmed at 6pm sharp.

The crowd began to scream. Lightsticks turned on. The pearl aqua ocean was ready to embrace the boys. I started chanting “SHINee SHINee SHINee” and the whole stadium followed.

The introductory video came on where they introduced each member and the screams were loud.
“SHINee The 1st Concert. Welcome to the SHINee World” the last line of the introductory video.

And then the start of the concert version of ‘SHINee World’!

“I wanna know you neoye gyeote”
“We got the flow it's break your naughty”
“I wanna show it da boyeoljulge”
“We got the flow it’s through my body”

And then one by one they start jumping up from different sides of the stage. The crowd went wild. They walked around and danced to the song.

They performed without any breaks. I saw them running off the stage the moment each song ended and the lights dimmed again. It was like they were rushing but that made everything wilder because we had no time to think of anything.

Their vocals and dance moves look so amazing on videos but you have not understood perfection beyond perfection until you have witnessed them perform live.

From fast songs to rock versions down to ballads. They blew me away. The power in their voices, the lightfooted dancing, the sweet serenades, I was in awe.

Onew, the most caring person ever, my dear dubu, was having a sore throat that night so his voice was abit hoarse at some parts but it was very minimal and he sounded so amazing I can’t describe. I have always loved Onew’s voice the most because it could somehow touch me inside and what my ears heard on that night was beyond amazing.

His solo of the opera song ‘Nessun Dorma’, previously sang by Andrea Bocelli and Pavarotti was heavenly. EARGASM I TELL YOU! It was so beautiful and perfect, it brought tears to my eyes. Fancams and videos of him performing this song does not do him justice at all. If you think that it’s amazing after watching fancams, I’m telling you, listening to it live will give you the chills.

Taemin, my dear baby, was super fierce! The dancing machine on stage and the dork everywhere else, I witnessed exactly that. He was so serious while performing, he didn’t look like the cute baby on pictures but during the angel performance, I caught him laughing when he was looking at the other members. During the first few songs, he was wearing this sleeveless kind of v-neck top and it bared part of his chest almost towards the abs and omg..I stared..I couldn’t help but stare at his chest..and once in a while the exposed nipple WOOT~

Okay sorry but he was seriously farking hot! And his voice is so beautiful. We all know how much he has improved since his debut days but seriously, it’s really beautiful. During ballads, he sounded so sweet and during fast songs, his voice was so powerful. His solo was SHINee’s very own ‘소년, 소녀를 만나다 (Romeo +Juliette)’ from their 2nd mini album, Romeo. He totally rocked the song and the dancing was beyond words. When he was dancing, I chanted “Lee Taemin Lee Taemin” and the whole stadium echoed along. If you watch the fancam, you would see that at the end of the song, he would slide down to the floor. When he slide down, he was facing my area! So farking sexy and I’m sorry but I somehow stared down..at his pants..hehehe..

Puppy Jjong, my puppysaur Kim Jonghyun, the lead vocalist. I noticed that his vocals were not in its best condition, probably because of the hectic schedules, but he pulled it off amazingly. His high notes were crazy and the power in his voice was godlike. Seriously, one of the best vocalist ever. He doesn’t look thaaaaat short in person..or maybe because the stage was high and I’m practically at his feet so he looks tall.

He changed his solo again! This time was ‘This Woman’s Work’ written and performed by British singer Kate Bush. I wonder if he’s having a dilemma about growing up because the lyrics are about being forced to suddenly confront reality and adulthood in times of crisis. The vocal range of the song is beyond crazy. Jonghyun totally went up a notch by performing this song. Eventhough probably no one in the crowd has heard the song before, his performance was praise worthy. It was basically a performance filled with falsetto and wow, crazy.

Kim Kibum, Key umma, my dearest diva. I do not know why I have never realized that his voice was so powerful. It was amazing and clear. He rocked each stage like there was no tomorrow. He sang ballads with such soulful expressions. He stood right in front of me a lot throughout the concert so I saw him head to toe a lot a lot a lot. And he spoke English when they were introducing themselves and all that.

Key’s solo was 3OH!3 feat Kesha’s ‘My First Kiss’. The much anticipated solo because Taeminnie came out as Lee Taeyeon. I actually felt happy that Krystal didn’t come because I really wanted to see Taem putting girls to shame. LOL. The mother and son pairing was so cute! It was a very fun stage and I really enjoyed the interactions.

My dream guy, the person who has every single thing I ever wanted in a guy, Choi Minho, my ultimate bias, the reason why I started my Kpop journey. His voice is so smooth! Everyone knows Minho can rap because well, he is the rapper of the group. He barely gets to sing but he has been getting more singing parts instead of rapping and during those lines where he sang, I felt my heart skipped a beat. I have always loved his deep sexy voice and he really improved a lot as well. It was sexy like a candle light dinner with red wine.

His solo was Usher’s ‘OMG’ which was basically omg from start to end. The much anticipated chocolate abs performance. He started off serious and everything and then suddenly broke a cheeky grin which was so adorable! Everything about him and his performance was omg. I was spazzing all the way. I finally get to see Min-abs. At that moment, I was like “Okay boy, let me rape you, let’s go!” T_T

The concert advanced at a very fast pace. They were playful and having fun. Fanchants were pretty good for Ring Ding Dong and Lucifer. They flew up and there were the lasers. It was so damn cool. I did the fanchants for all the songs but the rest of the crowd doesn’t really know much. There were general Kpop fans as well so the lack of fanchants was disappointing. Singapore doesn’t deserve my boys honestly. Tsk.

Anyway, everything came like bam bam bam and suddenly it was the end. They went in and the video showed ‘Thank You’. That was when I chanted ‘Encore encore’ which everyone followed. I ran out of breath and everyone stopped for a few seconds before I chanted ‘SHINee SHINee’ and the whole stadium echoed along again.

And the boys came out in their official concert tee for ‘Jojo’! Next was ‘Bodyguard’ where they ran around and throw balls at fans and splash water at each other. They kept throwing the balls hard to the fans at the back instead of those in front. Since I was right in front, I couldn’t even catch any. But I ended up going home with a ball. I shall leave that story later. =)

Last song was ‘One’. Tears welled up in my eyes when they sang that song. It marked the end of the concert and I didn’t want that to happen. It was too fast. 3 hours had passed just like that. They did their bows after the song and then Jonghyun initiated a birthday song in English for Key! The plan was actually after the final bow, everyone starts singing the birthday song in Korean for Key but because of the fanclub’s failed planning, the crowd couldn’t grab the correct timing. I think they boys noticed all the ‘Happy Key’s Day’ banner that we had and so the birthday song was sung.

Key had his dance time where he did a really funny dance. They fans threw random hats on the stage and the boys picked some of it up and wore it to fool around. They said their thank you and goodbye and that was the end. T_T

I don’ know if I missed out anything because my mind is still messy with everything that happened. Fan service, how I got the ball and things that happened after the concert will be revealed in the next post! Because the moments I shared with each member is so special and precious that it deserves a post by itself.

SHINee World Concert Singapore 2011: Chaos Before The Moment

2011-09-11T12:18:00.006+08:00

The first time I started paying attention to Kpop was when I saw the charismatic never give up look on Minho's face on the first episode of Dream Team. That was where my journey of becoming a part of SHINee World started.

I've waited so long to see them in person. Called one of the best live performing idol groups, all I wanted was to listen to them sing live. There were many many chances along the way but all the time, always, something else just gets in the way of my boys and me. It was heartbreaking. Wanting something so badly and when you can almost touch it, it starts to fade away. It happened so many times I fear for our fate. Was I destined never to be able to see them in person?

SHINee World Concert Singapore 10th of September 2011, Singapore Indoor Stadium.

I was prepared on the day they announced that my boys will be having their solo concert in Singapore. I told myself, "This is it" but then again, thats what I tell myself every single time. I got a Singaporean friend to buy my ticket online and made sure he woke up in time to do it. And then I got my moshpit ticket. I got the same person to queue up to preorder my merchandise at FLY Ent's office and made sure he went early.

And because of that, I had my ticket and merchandise. Everything seemed very smooth, too smooth that I was afraid something will take it away from me..again. I took 2 days leave from my work, approved. I bought my bus ticket, had a place to stay and then came Thursday 8th September.

10.45am bus, I made sure I wasn't late. During that 5 hours bus ride, I was afraid. When I reached Singapore itself, I kept thinking, "Its really happening..its really happening". The moment my bus stopped, I took a train to the stadium where 2 Indonesian girls in my queue group were already there. We were the 2nd group to queue. We chatted awhile and time just flew pass. I then went to meet my brother for dinner with CK, James and I forgot his name. LOL.

Went back to my bro's place and had to sleep in a room with a girl whom I have only met 2 times. It was pretty awkward and I was feeling bad since she shared a room with her boyfriend and then her boyfriend has to bunk in with his brother in another room. =/

Before that I received smses from a few of my queue group members saying that the security guard are chasing everyone away because RITS has suddenly changed the rule to no overnight queuing allowed from overnight queuing highly discouraged. Somehow everyone kept asking me what they should do. I was worried for them so I asked them to go back to their hotel first and come again the next day to check out the situation.

Next day, 9th September, Friday. I went to the stadium in the morning and saw that the moshpits queue has changed to a different section. Basically its like a gathering at an open area, both Pen A and Pen B were there. The 2 Indonesian girls, Yui and Fiona, left for Universal Studios when I arrived. Chatted with some of the Shawols there and waited for time to pass. I was suffering that day because I was suddenly hit by a weird flu bug. My nose was practically leaking and I used up 2 packets of tissues in less than 15 minutes. I had to go to the toilet and use the toilet paper to blow my nose.

Left at around 3.30pm when Aara and Jeans came. Bought Panadol Flu Max to cure my leaking nose. Went back to shower and pack for overnighting while waiting for my bro to come back. Left for dinner at 18 Chefs with an Egg, Fong and a different I forgot his name. LOL. My nose was still leaking and it was red and painful. We tried to look for a pharmacy but there was none. Useless Panadol Flu Max. Instructions were to not take more than 8 tablets within 24 hours. I too 9 tablets within 10 hours.

After dinner was back to stadium. So many other groups arrived that night. Probably more than 150 people were there when I arrived at night and these people are only the representatives of their group. Amen. That was when we had problem with the security guard. They said that its like an illegal gathering bla bla bla so by 1am we have to clear the place. We can be anywhere except on the Stadium premises. A few of them came and gave us different information saying the management kept saying different things at different time.

At 1am, everyone dispersed. Because the train has stopped, those in Pen B just slept outside the MRT station, with the approval of the MRT security. Those in Pen A dispersed into smaller groups to take over the taxi stands and bus stops. My group also had to sleep by the road side. Before that I was talking to the guards asking them why we can't queue overnight and all those stuff. I also made a sad story saying that we are foreigners and we didn't book hotel because at first RITS only said that overnight queuing is highly discouraged and we have no internet connection so suddenly changing rules, we didn't even know until locals told us about it and now the train has stopped, we are young and have no money to book hotel bla bla bla.

Wahh, damn sad right my story? Its actually pretty much facts. My group itself consist of 10 girls including me. 2 from Indonesia, 1 from Vietnam, I'm from Malaysia, the rest Singaporean. After that he told us that he can't do anything because its not his decision so we went to sleep at the roadside. Lucky 1 of the girls brought 3 mats so we laid it out. The Indonesians brought sleeping bags. The guard probably felt sorry for us after the sad story, he brought alot of bottles of water and gave them to us free. LOL.

At around 4am, most of us were awake, just stoning and checking out the entrance. I barely slept at all because of all the noise from the taxis passing. At around 5am, taxis started coming and people started coming. We were told by the guards that official queue starts at 10am and we can only start queuing around 8am but these people who came in the early morning, those idiotic people who were complaining so much to RITS about banning overnight queuing and all those nonsense, came and sat at the entrance.

Somehow, we managed to be in front of the queue though. From dusk to dawn, the sun came up. There were so many people there and that was when we were told by one of the management guy that this is not the official queue and they may change the place of the queue. At around 9am, he came and told us to stand up and follow him so we followed. That was when those stupid bitches from behind who came only in the morning started running from behind to the front! It was chaotic! Everyone started running because of that and they pushed people away.

The first 2 groups since Thursday which includes my group somehow managed to keep our 1st and 2nd spots all the way. Those bitches kept pushing pushing pushing and I got so annoyed that I just elbowed them. It was crazy messy and those who have been overnighting got really pissed at those who came in the morning for their behaviour. Many of us were foreigners, some from Myanmar, Japan, Korea, China etc. And we were tired from not sleeping already.

We were led in 3 lines. Nearing the entrance of Pen A, 3 lines turned into 2. The ones in the front of the 1st and 2nd line were our own people but the 3rd line was those bitches. When it turned into 2 lines, they started pushing and cutting the queue. I was pissed so I raised my voice to them, right in front of the management guy who was leading us. I could see that he was annoyed as well.

But we were still at the front in the end. Wrist tags were given out at 11am, collected my merchandise at 12pm and I got my concert tee! They were stupid to have only gotten 200 tees when theres 6,000 fans. After getting everything, went back home. I didn't feel like leaving because the boys were already in the stadium doing their rehearsals! And their voices can be heard from outside! And it was so heavenly! But then I was smelly and sweaty and I wanted to be fresh for the concert so I went back.

My brother only reaches back at 2.15pm so I had to sit at the staircase and wait for him to come back to open the door. They suddenly said that they will open doors at 3.30pm instead of 4.30pm! I was rushing like crazy and started running the moment I reached there. Luckily, nothing changed eventhough I was late for 10 minutes. I was in panic state as the time draws nearer.

My heart was beating so damn fast. I managed to get a Minho hand banner from the girl in the first group since she wasn't Minho biased. Lightstick check, towel check, banner check, ticket check, concert tee check. And we were allowed to go in at 4.30pm. We had the time to see where we wanted to stand in the moshpit which was good. I stood at the extended stage area. I started getting really sleepy while waiting. The lights dimmed at 6pm sharp.

What happened during the concert will be in the next post. It deserves a separate post. Theres so much to spazz about!

Taiwan Shawols, Thank You!

2011-07-19T13:52:00.003+08:00

Japan, Korea and on the 16th was Taiwan.

The Taipei concert is definitely one of the most memorable for them because they finally performed together as 5.

Jonghyun was injured during the Japan and Korea concerts which I'm sure was a big disappointment to all of them. A solo concert is every singer's dream. They shared the same dream since before debut and when it finally happened, one of the member couldn't dance. Although it was still really successful but there will always be something missing.

Finally, Taiwan. All 5 were healthy and in great condition. And they were so amazingly retarded throughout the concert. Why I say they are retarded? Just look at the way they played during 'Bodyguard'. And because this time they were able to perform together, they were even more playful and violent. So hyper that Jonghyun and Minho fell down. =')

My purpose of this post is to thank Taiwan Shawols.

The pearlscent sky blue ocean that flooded Taiwan that night, thank you.

You did the fanchants perfectly. Even for songs that were not promoted, you made the fanchants as well. Just a simple 'bitnaneun SHINee' or chanting members' names made a lot of difference. You spazzed at all the right times. The stadium echoed with your singalongs when they were performing ballads.

I really think that fans should never scream when their idols are singing ballads, instead they should sing along to it. And this is the first time I've heard nothing else but the idols and the fans singing to the same lines.

Thank you, Taiwan Shawols.

I hope that Singapore Shawols will do the same.

It Will Happen..It Will..

2011-07-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

SHINee The 1st Concert: SHINee World

IS HEADING TO SINGAPORE ON SEPTEMBER 10TH 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing beats going to their home country to watch it as I have mentioned before but..I finally get to see my boys perform LIVE!

Hearing the news got me scared, honestly. Because everytime I want something really badly, it approaches me slowly and then fades away. ITNW Bangkok was an example, the Seoul concert was another. So, will I finally get to listen to their amazing vocals and see their amazing footworks?

I'm not letting anything stop me this time. Even if I have to swim there, I would.

September 10th 2011 will be the day I witness perfection beyond perfection. I'll probably cry the moment I step into the stadium and the moment the video starts playing and the moment they perform the first song, which is SHINeeWorld and probably cry my eyes out throughout the whole 2 and a half hours.

Don't troll me this time. You've trolled me enough.

Love lots.

PS: I CAN FARKING SEE MINHO'S SEXY CHOCOLATE ABS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE REAL THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Penang Food Hunt 2-4 July 2011

2011-07-11T11:41:00.003+08:00

Hello loves~

I'm just going to tell you where I went in Penang. As for pictures, please go check my Facebook.

Owh wait..did you all even know I went to Penang? Well, if you didn't, you know now.

Saturday, 2nd July 2011, I left home to meet up with the Lims, Lees and Foos at Manda's place. A total of 13 people in 4 cars, departed for Ipoh at 9.30am..I think. Sorry, I was half asleep still. =D

Went to Ipoh for hor fun and dry curry mee. It was pretty good..or maybe because we were hungry.Then drove up to Penang. Was supposed to stop a little before Penang for some duck leg pau but there was an unexpected jam due to 2 overturned lorries. Delayed our plans so we decided to skip that meal.

Reached Penang and went straight for some market place. Ate ban chien kueh, duck noodles, lobak, popiah, char kuey teow, otak otak, curry laksa, bakua, rojak, roast pork. Food sucked, environment sucked, only the ban chien kueh was pretty good. Next stop was New World for ice kacang, which came out in the newspaper before. Ice kacang and cendol sucked. Nobody finished it at all. Also tried the ochien and asam laksa which was equally as bad.

On the way to the hotel, we stopped by the roadside to buy some apong which came out in the newspapers as well. Waited really long but it wasn't worth the wait. Sorry, but it was like a normal pancake with banana and some coconut and corn. Finally, hotel!

We stayed at ShangRi La Rasa Sayang Resort and Spa, which was probably the highlight of this whole trip. I love the hotel to the core of my heart! The place was cozy, the room was so homely, the toilet was gorgeous, the view was amazing, the service was fantastic and the breakfast was delicious! RM450+ per night but worth every single cent. No exaggerations. Anyway, walked around the hotel abit, took a nice shower and then headed for dinner.

Things didn't go well as it started pouring. We were supposed to go for some famous food but because these old shops were on lower grounds, the roads were flooded. It started with a flash flood when we were searching for parkings and it floated cars after the few rounds we turned. It was pretty scary. I could feel the car floating a little as we move.The water rose to almost half the car tyres so we retreated to higher grounds. Ended up eating at Old Green House. I was really tired and wasn't even feeling hungry anymore. The bah kut teh and har mee was famous there. Also ordered clams, curry mee, some others which I don't remember.

Went back to hotel and practically died on the bed. Woke up early for hotel breakfast! I'm a huge fan of hotel breakfasts, if you didn't know. Ate quite alot because I actually woke up due to hunger. LOL.

Then rested for 30 minutes before heading out for food. Went for kuey teow tng. Then Penang Road Famous Cendol, which tasted so much better than the previous day's one. Asam laksa and pai tee. Next stop was Sister's char kuey teow. Finally, some decent food. After eating so much sucky food, the char kuey teow was on a totally different level. Its not that its exceptionally good but after all that, it tasted pretty heavenly. Back to hotel to rest.

Everyone went for a swim. It was nice since its been a long time since the cousins had gathered together in a pool. Wanted to do some water sport but the sun was scorching hot so we decided to just chill in the pool. Bathe and out for dinner.

Dinner was at a decent restaurant instead of hawker food. CRC Restaurant, packed with people, looks decent, but the food was pretty tasteless. It looked good but compared to restaurant food in KL, total failure. I'm not going to name all the food so just go to my Facebook and see for yourself. After dinner, we went to check out Hard Rock Hotel, which was supposed to be our first choice for hotels. Checked out the place and then headed for some drinks in the club.

Been awhile since I drank. Finally broke my non-alcoholic year that night..owh wait..thats not my first alcohol intake this year..err..owh well. Had some drinks, listened to the band and then back to hotel to sleep. Day 3, last day. Hotel breakfast in the morning, then packed up, checked out and headed for food. Really hated that I had to leave the hotel..I didn't want to leave at all. =(

Oon Swee Hoe chicken/duck noodles. The best meal of the whole trip! The soup was delicious. Also had curry laksa and lobak which was also pretty good. Went to buy tau sar peah and then food again. Curry fish head, prawn curry, crab, tauge, chicken, pork bla bla bla. Love the curry because it was spicy enough. Its been a long time since I've eaten something that was spicy enough~

That was it. Basically, it was a good breather and a great get together among the family members. We've always had once a year family trip since young but as we grow older, the cousins start to disperse and its even harder now to get everyone together since some are studying abroad and some are working already. Like this trip itself, my brother couldn't join because hes in Singapore and can't come back because he can't take leave. Probably the next time we go for a whole family trip would be end of the year.

This eating trip turned out to be a total failure. For the first time out of all our eating trips, we were met with alot of unexpected incidents such as the jam and the rain. Missed out on all the good food and ate alot of unnecessary bad food that actually came out in the newspaper. Hello mr reporter, are you sure your tastebuds are okay??

But then again, maybe its because we have been eating so much good food all the time that our tastebuds are of a higher standard already. However, the holiday was a really enjoyable one. Stirs up my travel passion once again though. =/

Love lots.

The First BEAST Fan Meet Asia Tour

2011-07-02T01:05:00.011+08:00

Finally blogging about last Friday! So, last Friday, 1st July 2011, marks my 3rd Kpop live act, featuring none other than BEAST. My 3rd time watching them. If I didn't spazz so much about my boys, people would have thought that I am a B2uty instead or a loyal Cube fan. Let me just remind you that the only fandom I belong to is SHINeeWorld. As for the rest, I am just a big fan. =)

Since it was a weekday, I woke up at 5.30am and went to work bla bla bla. Drove to Sunway after work, bought work shoes because mine was dying, and then headed for Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach where the event was held. It was a pretty hectic day for me. I had less than RM150 with me on that day. Wanted to withdraw money for the very first time but something wrong with my card. Wanted to pay for my shoes with debit card but they say over RM50 only can. Sighh.

Anyway, I spent my office hours learning fanchants and so I was pretty prepared. Randomly approached a group of girls to ask where the VIP entrance was. And coincidently, they were had VIP seats as well. Friendly people and were all B2uties so the first thing they noticed was my BigBangShow shirt which I was wearing. LOL. I was there to troll. Met a few new girls but can't remember names..err =X

Went in, the queue for the official merchandise was crazy long. Separated from the girls as they had front row seats. I was at row 7 seat 109 from the left. It was right in the middle of the stage and the view was quite near. Nearest out of all 3 times..and well, paid alot more as well.

They suddenly entered the venue on a buggy from the top next to the stage. I think its linked from the hotel or something. I was stunned for that short moment and I couldn't stop smiling. Everyone screamed but I just stared silently with a stupid smile on my face. They waved at us and we all waved back.

The show started at 8.30pm sharp. The 6 boys took the stage with Special and Soom. The music was loud and the beats got my heart pumping. Amazing vocals, amazing dance, amazing power.

After the 2 song, it was a talk session with MC Owen Yap. Each were asked to speak abit in Malay. Yoseob said Apa khabar? Saya Yoseob ipnida. Asked for other malay words, Dongwoon said durian, someone else said satay then laksa then terima kasih. MC asked if they knew what saranghae in malay was..Yoseob answered says cinta kamu. Really cute moment.

Celebrated Doojoon's birthday which is on the 4th. Sang in korean. He looked surprised and was totally happy. After blowing cake, they sat down for short Q&A session. Questions were collected from fans through email. Only 6 questions were asked.

When asked what is their favourite pose, they showed us V. Last question was from a guy who wanted the members to sing a birthday song to his girlfriend. Ticket was her birthday present because it is her dream to watch BEAST live. They sang for her in english. It was really funny because of the standard 'birsday'. I think Gikwang said 'so romantica' lol

A group who danced Kpop covers who have won competitions and even performed in Korea, Progression were introduced. They performed a short dance of Shock while BEAST sat at the side to watch. They joined in the 'shock' chants.

Then it was the real Shock! And next was Beautiful. They were very playful throughout their performances and there were lots of crowd interactions.

Game session. Lucky draw 6 fans out to play some bowling game. The first girl who was Hyunseung's partner was a Korean. The members felt close to her and kept talking to her. Doojoon and Yoseob kept playing with their towels and teased the fans..Yoseob was a total flirt with his partner..hugged her, put his arms around her..omg I was so jealous. (I'm Yoseob bias) The girl, however, was holding a placard saying 'Joker' which is Junhyung's Twitter name. Yoseob said out loud while holding it 'JOKER?' It was hilarious. Doojoon used his towel to cover his partner's legs.

In the end, Dongwoon team won. All the rest of the girls got a handphone from MBI while Dongwoon's partner got an air purifier. The good thing was that he autographed big big on the air purifier box, probably the only thing that matters to the girl. The handphone was in a box and was passed to the members one each to be presented to their partners. Hyunseung took the box and said 'mweo ya?' out loud. It was so cute! Yoseob thought he would be given one too but the MC said 'not for you' and he laughed and said 'ok'.

Performed On Rainy Days next. Great vocals. It wasn't a song that I liked so it wasn't on my ipod and it was probably my 4th time listening to that song but seriously, listening to it live just got me wondering why I didn't liked the song in the first place.

Then Fiction! OMGAHHH The absolute biggest reason why I decided to watch BEAST for the 3rd time is because I wanted to witness Fiction live! The stupid thing was the fanchants. Everytime a song comes up, the fans start spazzing so much they forget to do the fanchants. I was doing the Fiction fanchant at the start but nobody near me were doing it so I felt odd and since I'm not familiar with BEAST's fanchants, I went 'Yoon Doojoon, Jang Hyunseung, Yong Junhyung..why nobody doing fanchants?!' I shouted it out since I was shouting the fanchant..lol. The guy next to me laughed. He was solo there but he bought the official merchandise..fanboy eh?

Got one more song..I don't remember the name of it. I think it was Oasis.

They went in to change and came out to sing I Like You Best and last song, You. Super playful. The seated fans stood up and started jumping while singing along. Hyunseung danced randomly like some solo stage. The rest were running around like kids. It was amazing!!!! And then end.

Junhyung and Hyunseung were really quiet. Junhyung probably because of the recent news about him and Hara dating but the screams for him was just as loud as for the rest of the members. Hyunseung was probably feeling under the weather or maybe thats his style. But they were playful and enjoying the stage.

Dongwoon spoke quite alot of English. I'm guessing he learnt quite alot while hanging out with my diva Key. 91 liners =) Doojoon kept teasing the VVIPs. He kept waving and did mehrongs. Yoseob was playful as usual. Gikwang is short. Haha! Dongwoon kept making us do the 'son nam shin' chant and he actually looks really gorgeous up close. Why have I never paid any attention to that? Hyunseung is really cute yet really sexy~

Hi-touch session after that but was done behind the stage since its a private event. I stayed until after the hi-touch session and the boys sat on the buggy again back to the hotel. The girls went wild and started running after them! The scene was like people running for their lives from a monster or something. I just stood and stare. LOL.

It was worth every single cent..maybe even more. I can't believe I even needed to contemplate whether to go or not to go and whether to get VIP seats or PS1 standing zone. I regretted not enquiring about the VVIP seats. Cube artists, never fail to impress me. 3rd time watching these boys and not a single regret. And I still crave for more. They're coming back here for MTV Asia World Stage on the 24th of July! I really want to watch Fiction live again but I don't know how to get tickets. FML.

More pictures on my Facebook. Blogger takes too long to upload.

While watching them perform, I started to tear abit. I thought of my boys, about how I would react when I finally see them live for the first time. After missing out so many times, I will definitely start crying like those fans in Paris and LA.

One day, I'll be a part of that pearlscent sky blue ocean that you are all proud of.

CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY~

2011-06-25T20:48:00.004+08:00

Nothing special happened. Another boring week of work. Spent most of the hours translating chinese to english and english to chinese again. Its a serious FML situation, honestly.

I have never hated the language so much in my life. You may think that I can learn how to read by doing this but seriously, I don't learn when I don't want to. I mean, I have practically no interest in learning chinese. If I really did have the interest, I would have already learnt some by now like how I picked up Japanese and Korean.

Ahh..what the heck. Not going to let it spoil my weekend..my weekends are short enough. I'd rather fill them with loads of spazzing and smiling and laughing before heading on to another boring week of work. I need my strength to keep me moving.

ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, 13th August 2010, I witnessed my first ever live kpop experience in Singapore, which included them,

Thursday, 13th January 2011, my 2nd live kpop act, included them as well,

this Friday, 1st July 2011, I will be witnessing the same 6 boys for the third time!! OMGAHHHH SPAZZZZZZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I'm seriously excited. Theres finally something to look forward to at the end of a dull, depressing week of work! Despite not being a B2uty, I am still a huge fan. I can't wait to see and listen to Fiction live! Its going to be amazing! And whats even better is that its an official fanmeeting, as in 2 hours with only 1 group! Epic! It doesn't even matter that I'll be going alone because they are so worth it!

Just typing and thinking about makes me happy. I think I better go learn the proper fanchants since I'll be at the VIP seats.

On a separate note, I'm really happy that KBSWorld decided to air Immortal Song 2. I have been have been having problems downloading the show since 2 weeks ago. Megaupload being blocked was part of the problem but after I managed to cheat my way through, the internet starts trolling me. I really enjoyed watching the show earlier today and Hyorin totally deserved the win. The way she changed the arrangement of the song just blew me away. Jonghyun's vocals and emotions were so strong it makes my heart pump when I listen to him sing. Its really worth watching, may be a little slow but lots of amazing vocals. Its too bad the original members cant continue on further together.

Love lots.

PS: I miss Onew Sangtae. It used to be JongKey making all the noise with Onew throwing in random stuff once in awhile but these days Minho joined JongKey to turn their interviews into a chaotic moment while Taemin is forced by his hyungs to speak more so Onew just do the closing most of the time. You know the 'jigeum kaji contemporary bandeu...' part. But I'm glad that even in Japan, hes learning his gags, 'oyaji gag' this time. 'Kaeru kaeru', if you have watched the Replay BTS, you would know what it means. =)

Beyond Impossible

2011-06-19T01:52:00.003+08:00

Its Sunday already.. T_T

Sometimes I surprise myself with what I am capable of doing. On Monday, I was asked to create a 1-page slide for that night's seminar. It was okay because I was told what to write and it was in English. On Tuesday, I was asked to translate what I wrote the day before into Chinese.

And as you all know, I can't read or write Chinese. Heck, even my conversational Mandarin skills are considered passable only. I mean, I get through Mandarin by translating it into Cantonese or from Cantonese in my head. And I do not exactly enjoy speaking or being spoken to in a language that I am not familiar with.

I honestly think I fair better in Korean than I do Chinese..atleast I can read Hangeul. Even Japanese is not that bad, although its slipping off my mind slowly already.

So, translating English into Chinese and to write it out on a slide was practically impossible for me..or so that was what I thought (and almost everyone else too). At first, I thought my boss was kidding..like why would you ask a person who cannot read and write in Chinese to do such a thing when there are so many others who have that knowledge that don't exist in me?

But since I was asked to do a task like that, I challenged myself..with that stupid personality of mine that has caused me much suffering. I think this stupid personality keeps on growing partly because of my attention towards Minho..really now, I think he is my ideal because we share similar traits.

Back to topic. So how did I manage to do the impossible? With the help of the internet and a nice old friend of mine!

One window for English-Chinese translation, another one for Chinese-pinyin translation and another for Twitter. I basically had to translate all that first before understanding what the translation was saying. And of course, big big thanks to Tzyy for helping me on Twitter. =')

And before I knew it, the slide was done. A whole page of Chinese words that I can't even read. The second problem came up when my boss wanted me to edit a sentence in the slide. He was telling me words that I have never heard before and do not know what it is in Cantonese. And the funny thing was that he wrote out the whole sentence on a piece of paper in Chinese and expected me to type it out.

I stared at the paper and those weird characters blankly and then wrote out the pinyin for it. And fortunately for me I had a senior there who read the sentence out to me again so that I could get the correct pinyin and another colleague who showed me a website that can type Chinese from pinyin easily. And the rest was history~

That night, during the Mandarin seminar, my slide came up and I stared at it blankly. I couldn't read the words at all but only remembered what it said from memorizing earlier.

Most of them who thought that it was impossible asked me how I managed. Owh well, it goes back to my motto of "When there's a will, there's a way. When I have a will, I'll find my way".

I hope this teaches you something. You do not know your limit until you have tested it. I've surpassed mine again~ God, my boys sure have changed me.

Love lots!

PS: Speaking about my boys, they have landed in London and their premium debut showcase is today! The first Asian artist to perform at the legendary Abbey Roads Studio! Their Japan debut is receiving first class treatment. All the magazines giving them atleast 10page spreads, lots of advertising all around. I'm really happy for them but I do hope they get to rest more and spend some time with their family and of course, get some study time as well. They haven't went back to their country ever since they left for Paris. =/ Goodluck, sweethearts!

So Goodbye, Don't Cry and Smile~

2011-06-04T10:35:00.004+08:00

Hello butterflies~ =)

Currently listening to Jonghyun's So Goodbye, SBS City Hunter OST. Raping the replay button because his voice is so heavenly! I mean he always had an amazing voice, one of the best vocalist in the world (no exaggerations). There seems to be no end to his adlibs and his vocal range. But in this solo, its a different style of ballad. Its tender and smooth yet strong and powerful. The way he changes from higher notes to lower notes and back high is so effortless and the vibrato is just perfect.

Okay..I shall stop spazzing about my lead vocalist. =D

Pictures were taken last Saturday, on the way to a wedding at Pavillion. I actually don't know who got married but its someone from my paternal family so yea, all I did was go and eat and smile smile as always.

This week, considered as my 3rd week of work..I think. The CEO came in from Singapore for a visit. And he remembers my name..which can be scary. He gave a short briefing yesterday morning and I was as usual, trying my best to stay awake. I was practically stoning there, pretending to listen and nodding my head a little once in awhile.

And then I snapped back to reality when he said "bla bla bla..like Nikki so young, only 21..bla bla bla"

Its nice when people remembers things about you but it can be scary when the big boss mentions you like that infront of others. Anyway, after briefing, we headed for lunch in KLCC. Japanese cuisine and a treat from the CEO. Supposingly an early thank you meal to the dealers and marketing seniors to accomplish the 3 months targetted KPI but to me, its just a free meal.

Because after the 3 months end, I will have only just received my license and become a real dealer so basically I have nothing to give right now to help in accomplishing that target.

There is such a thing as a free meal. =D

Besides studying everyday, I've been learning bits and parcels of how to write the daily commentaries, how to use the trading platform, how the systems are related from Singapore to Malaysia to BURSA bla bla and stuff like that. Still a long long way to go though.

Owh! And I have bought my VIP ticket for BEAST's 1st fanmeeting in Malaysia! 3rd Kpop act will be BEAST again..first 2 times also BEAST. Its like we're fated or something but everytime I come home feeling satisfied. Totally worth the time and money, sweat and rain. And this time its a fanmeeting so I can expect lots of fanservice moments.

Yang Yoseob~ Yoon Doojoon~ WOOT!

Love lots =)

Confessing To A Sone (Shawol Style)

2011-05-29T11:37:00.004+08:00

I onced said that I won't fall for a SONE because the guy will definitely compare me to the 9 angels. Even if your confidence is 100%, when being compared to 9 girls who have so much more to offer, your confidence level drops atleast a little..if not alot.

Owh well, this is for fun..because I have nothing better to do right now. If I were to fall for a Sone, I would confess by saying..

I do not have legs as long as SooYoung's, I do not have aegyo as cute as Sunny's,

I do not have dance skills as awesome as Hyoyeon's, I do not have vocals as heavenly as Taeyeon's,

I do not have eye smiles as captivating as Tiffany's, I do not have porcelain skin as doll like as YoonA's,

I do not have an hour glass body as perfect as Yuri's, I do not have habits as healthy as Seohyun's, I do not have personality as unique as Jessica's,

I do not have whatever you love about these girls, but I think I deserve a chance to be noticed and to be considered.

Afterall, you are not as caring as my Onew nor do you have a sense of humor as unique as him,

you cannot dance as awesome as my Taemin nor can you be as cute as him,

you are not as tall and athletic as my Minho nor do you have a voice and body as sexy as his,

you are not as stylish and straightforward as my Key nor are you able to have confidence as overflowing as him,

you do not have vocals as crazy as my Jonghyun nor can you talk as much as him.

Maybe I should think properly if you are really who I want.

Its Not So Bad Afterall

2011-05-28T15:51:00.005+08:00

2nd week of working life has passed. This week was filled with trainings, briefings and learning bits of things. So, time did actually pass a little faster compared to the first 3 days of work last week.

This week was not that bad. I didn't feel dead like I did last week and even had the energy to watch abit of tv before heading to bed everynight.

But there won't be anywhere talks and briefings so I'm back to staring at the books again..until my exam day..which is really boring. =/

Alot of my colleagues or the people working there asked me why I decided to take up this job, especially since its my first job ever. I didn't know what to answer so I said that it sounds interesting. I asked my seniors why they took up this job, they said that they were interested in the job scope. I was pretty stunned that all of them said the same thing..because I actually don't feel the interest in staring at numbers and analyzing graphs and reading news..not at all.

Dad asked me yesterday if I liked the job. He said that if I don't like it I can choose to walk off. But walking off isn't me. Walking off just because I'm not interested in something or I don't like what I'm doing is totally defying my life's rules. And because the people there treats me so well, I could never just walk off.

And its just the beginning. If I were to have such an attitude, I wouldn't have graduated at 20, that is for sure. It was because I pushed beyond what I thought was my limit and I fought through eventhough I hated every second of it that I got through. And I will continue fighting even now, even if I suffer, even if I despise it. Because this is me. Because I'm just a foolish person who loves challenges.

Because challenges are opportunities to become a better person.

I'm sure things will get more interesting once I get my license. I'll get to meet people and maybe learn how to make my own fortune by trading myself. Thats one of the biggest reason why Finance students take on the Investment industry, no? =)

Millionaire by 30, billionaire by 40, still on my goal list. =D

My sweethearts celebrated their 3rd anniversary. Its been 3 SHINing years and they are shining even brighter with every passing day. The best thing that has ever happened to me was to discover the existance of these 5 shining stars. They changed my life for the better. Brought so much tears but brought even more joy to me.

Some people may think that this is just a phase that will pass but thats not true. Some may think that I'm wasting money on them but thats not true. I don't know what idols' existance mean to other fans but to me, they are more than just people I spazz about. Thanks to these 5 boys, I've learnt so much and gone through so much.

I'm sorry for always ending my posts with my boys but I really think people should know how important it is to have someone to look up to, to have something to look forward to, to have a source of hope and strength. You may find these things in something other than singers, thats okay, but it really is one of the most important things in life that you must have.

I owe my '20 year old graduate' success to these boys. I owe my 'depression recovery' success to these boys.

Because they shine upon my path, shining so brightly making sure I don't approach darkness. Gomawayo, uri saranghaneun bitnaneun taseot namja deul. =')

Love lots.

First 3 Days Of Working Life

2011-05-21T19:07:00.006+08:00

I have attended 3 days of work this week. I had to wake up at 5.30am everyday and get out of the house at 6.30am to avoid getting stuck in the jam, slow moving to Kelana Jaya and take LRT to KL which is about 35 minutes and walk another 5 minutes. Work starts at 8am.

I have been doing nothing but studying from 8am to 6pm. Supposingly work ends at 7pm but since I don't have anything to do, I get to leave an hour earlier..which doesn't make a difference because I'll still be caught in the jam and by the time I reach home, its 8pm already.

If you know me personally or have been reading my blog or tweets, you would definitely know that I have chronic insomnia. I can barely sleep until 3-4am everyday and if on bad days, can stay up the whole night staring at the ceiling..and I don't even nap in the day. Yes, chronic.

But amazingly, for these 3 days, I felt like I was dying. Come home, eat, bathe and then drop dead in bed at 10pm. I think that I can actually just fall asleep the moment I reach home, without even having dinner or bathing..which is not good so have to drag myself to do the necessary.

After my 2nd day (Thursday), I came home and tweeted "Honestly,Im regretting taking up this job..hours are so long its like I hav no life..seeing them stare at 3screens while dealing is crazy"

Today, I woke up and stared at my wall. I stared at the posters of my boys on my wall and felt ashamed. I was embarassed at my own thoughts. I always tell myself that I'm not smarter than others but I get to this point because I'm a very determined person. I didn't know I was so weak.

Here I am complaining about having long working hours when my boys practically don't sleep at all or maximum get only 2-3 hours of sleep everyday. They sing and dance and entertain from one place to another and after their crazy schedule ends, they start their practice session without being forced to. And not to mention they fly around to perform and sometimes have to fly back right after the performance on the same day like when they went to Singapore last year. Even when they are tired or sick or when it rains or shines, they still do their best with smiles on their faces.

And here I am being such a weak fool whining just because I have to sit in an aircon room from 8am-7pm reading a book. I absolutely hate it when people gives up when they 'think' they tried their hardest but here I am being the same as those people whom I hate. Talk about being a hypocrite.

Its going to be tough but I'm not going to give up because even if its something that I hate, I will still do my best..because that is who I am.

And with these boys in my life, I know that I can do anything. Just like them, I can do anything as long as I am determined.

My joy, my love, my strength, thank you.

Thanks To My 'I Love Challenges' Personality

2011-05-15T01:01:00.003+08:00

Its been such a long time since I last blogged and I am really surprised that there are still people who drop by once in awhile to check on me. I thought that I wouldn't be blogging anymore..but then again, its another new phase of life coming up. =)

If you were wondering what I've been up to after my graduation, everything can be described with just one word, 'slacking'. Life as an unemployed is pretty fun..of course, its only fun for a couple of months, for me, around 1 month+. Life as an unemployed involved eating, sleeping, eating, watching tv, using the computer, eating, sleeping.

I did however went to Singapore sometime early April for a few days..for no particular reason actually. There wasn't any concert or showcase but I just headed there for a short breather. It was fun meeting up with my brother's friends whom I have been talking to on Facebook and Twitter only and also met a few new friends along the way. I also took the bus and train by myself to meet up with Queenie. Its ironic how I can do all these things in a foreign country but have never tried it in my own..but who can blame me? Blame Malaysia's terrible public transport.

So anyway, I went for a few interviews; got insulted badly on my first one because I was too young and I look too soft, immediately got the position for the 2nd and 3rd, got insulted because of my age for the 4th, got blank stares for the 5th because I said that don't have any preference of what I want and am willing to try anything that comes my way, immediately got the position for the 6th and finally the 7th one was full of waiting but it went well.

And on Thursday (12/5), I finally signed my offer letter. So, I am right now, employed by Phillip Futures of Phillip Capital as a Junior Futures Dealer. FML.

Over and over again, I laugh at my own life. Its such a joke..yes my life is such a joke.

I've hated numbers since primary school. I told myself that I will never touch business but then I did Business/IT in my Pre-U and continued on to a Degree in Business and Commerce. I hated numbers and graphs. Analyzing graphs and trendlines and calculations were to me a total nightmare. But because of a split second decision to challenge myself, I majored in Finance and Economics. I suffered because of that stupid 'I love challenges' personality.

But amazingly, with crazy effort that I never knew I could pour out, I managed to pass every single Finance and Economics unit and graduate right on time. Its stupid that the one unit that I failed was an elective, which I thankfully got a Near Pass just in time because they changed the policy right after that. And I told myself, I'm never touching investments ever. Enough is enough.

I was not good enough to apply for jobs in the investment banks anyway. I had no experience and my results were shit. I ended up applying for sales positions in the bank, sales positions in random companies. Sales manager in the bank says that I'm very young and I look too soft for sales. They say that I have not gone through any hardships and I won't be able to handle being scolded.

All I was doing when they blasted me at that time was trying to keep calm and not shoot them back. And if you know me well, when I shoot people I make sure it stings in a very polite manner, which I held back because sales is all about patience.

Anyway, my dad asked me to apply for this Junior Futures Dealer position one day and so I did. I wasn't expecting them to call me but they did. I went for the interview and immediately I was offered the job which I told them I wanted time to consider.

I was actually given an opportunity to work in the investment industry. What nonsense is this..You would have think that I would immediately say no because I have told myself I don't want to touch that anymore. But being me, with my stupid 'I love challenges' personality, I decided to take up the job.

I hated it, I suffered so much, I say no thank you, but here I am again, venturing into what I hated, what made me suffer, what I said no to. My life is a joke, yes I know. And because I need to get a license first before really doing what I'm supposed to do, I'm actually being paid to learn. But the annoying part is..I have to study..again.

Just when I thought I'm done with it, I have to study and take exams again..on topics that I do not even want to think about. And the working hours are long..8am to 7pm like FML. And its in KL. And I'm so afraid of working. I'm not ready. I hate first times and first days..scares the shit out of me. Yes, I'm a shy person, I just act like I'm not and blend in with people.

I'm trailing away right now..as usual. But anyway, I'll be starting my ironic working life on the 18th. I don't know how I'm going to wake up because I can't seem to sleep at night again these days and I have to be there before 8am which probably means I have to wake up before 6am. FML. I hope I don't fall asleep there since the hours are so freaking long.

I'll try to blog properly soon. Love lots.

20 Year Old Graduate!

2011-03-11T12:42:00.003+08:00

That piece of paper that everyone is suffering for..
That piece of paper that costs over RM70,000..
That piece of paper that brings you one step above those without it..
That piece of paper presented to you in a split second after atleast 3 years of sweat and tears..

That piece of paper..I finally gotten it on the 9th of March 2011.

I am the family's 3rd graduate, as in among my cousins. First was Amanda, second my brother and third, yours sincerely. I always used to think that if you're older you graduate first but after entering university, I realised one of life's most important factor; Age doesn't matter.

What matters most is not your age, not how smart you are, not how interested you are in whatever you are undertaking, but how much effort you are putting forth, how much sleep you are willing to sacrifice, how much mental strength you have to pull you through.

My 3 years journey was filled with tears and stress. I blame myself partially because instead of the easy road of bullshitting your way through with Marketing and Management major, I chose to put myself through hell with Economics and Banking & Finance..ironically, all for the sake of a split second decision to challenge myself.

I remember telling a few new Monash friends I met last year that I was majoring in a combination of Economics and Finance. Their expression when they heard it, some were impressed, some thought I was crazy. I knew a few who dropped the Finance major but I also know of those who surpassed expectations with that major.

Whilst pursuing this combination, I have many times thought that I was reckless and crazy to have chosen it. But then and then again, I pulled through. Honestly, the amount of effort I put in to pass all the units and even managed a few Distinctions and Credits along the way, is godlike when compared to my past schooling years.

I think it was thanks to that one failed unit that I pushed so much harder. That failed unit that spoiled my chances of studying abroad, that failed unit that pulled my CGPA down to the ground, that failed unit that cost me many nights of nightmare during my exam period. I guess you could say that I have a love-hate relationship with that failed unit.

"It is not wrong to fail but it is a crime to give up" "When theres a will, theres a way. When I have a will, I'll find my way"

For successfully graduating in 3 years without prolonging my journey or spending extra money, I owe it to these words. I created them along the way and it really helped me alot.

Nothing is easy in life. If things are easy to achieve, you wouldn't appreciate the process and the results.

People think that I overreact when I cry after receiving my results each semester. They say "bad results cry, good results also cry". But you won't understand how much a relief it was to me that my efforts came through. You won't understand until you have really tried and pushed beyond your limits through the pressure and stress. That overwhelming feelings, I will never forget.

To those of you who have failed, feeling hopeless or losing hope, spend a day to cry yourself out, think of whether you really did try your hardest, slow down a little, find your strength and stand up again. If you give up on yourself, that is the end for you. Take problems as challenges, setbacks as motivation. Always keep in mind that there are tons of others having it harder than you but these people are not giving up, so why should you.

Anyway, I am my family's first and only 20 year old graduate, for that I applaud myself. Thats one goal achieved. =]

PS: Pictures on Facebook. Blogger is not letting me upload pictures.

Makan Gang Invades Malacca

2011-02-23T13:24:00.001+08:00

As you can read from the title, I went to Malacca on Monday for an eating trip with Mandy, Ian Kok and Fiona. I don't know if you remember, but I went to Ipoh for a one day eating trip with the exact same friends..and we seriously ate a crazy amount of food on that day itself.

As usual, we had our bible..

And 2 GPS..

We reached Jonker Street a little before noon and started finding for our first meal, the famous chicken rice ball. There were 3 shops which were famous and were walking distance from one another. We walked to all 3 of them to analyze which looked nicer. It was quite a hard choice since all shops had no customers..probably because it was not lunch time yet.

We finally decided on Chung Wah coffee shop. We went in, sat down and the food started coming on its own. I mean nobody came to take our orders but they just served us. Each of us were served a plate of 5 chicken rice balls and I presume, a 4 pax portion of chicken to share.

Honestly, the chicken looked disgusting. Exactly what you see is what we got. We stared at it for a little while but then proceed to taste it..afterall, people always say don't judge a book by its cover right? Well, not exactly.

The chicken was pretty tasteless and compared to all the chicken I have ever eaten, this was the worst. Its not that it tasted bad but theres nothing special about it. The rice ball was pretty tasty though. The price came to RM6.10 per person including drinks (barley).

Headed to Jonker 88, a self service coffee shop which was famous for its laksa and durian cendol.

Assam laksa RM5 per bowl. Nothing special, really. Its a tad bit more sour than the ones I have eaten in KL but thats it. It tasted okay.

Nyonya curry laksa RM5. It has more coconut milk than those in KL. It tastes slightly different because of that but it wasn't spicy..in my opinion okay. My friends felt that it was spicy. =/

Left cendol, right ice kacang RM2 each. Despite the place being famous for its durian cendol, none of us liked durian very much so we ordered the normal one instead. It was very refreshing since the sun was burning us from top to toe that day. You can really taste the real gula melaka taste which makes it different from the usual ones. The ice is pretty fine as well.

After that we took a stroll around the tourist area. It was quite interesting since all of us haven't been to Malacca for a long time. I've only been there once when I was really young.

Headed to the clocktower cendol stall for another round of ice.

Normal cendol RM1.50 and cendol mix RM1.70. This cendol was different from the one we had in Jonker 88. Instead of having shaved ice, this one was more of a water plus ice cube style. It tastes like the indian cendol at SS15.

Went to Dataran Pahlawan complex to cool down because..there was nothing much to eat and it was burning hot and all of us were not in our best condition. I, for example, only had 1 hour of sleep the night before. Insomnia can be scary, I tell you.

After awhile before dinner, left the mall for Tan Kim Hock, famous for its dodol and nutmeg.

Headed for the famous Capitol Satay Celup. We reached when they just opened but there were other tourists waiting already. Customers kept coming after that.

The choices of food. Its like steamboat lok lok style but instead of the normal soup base, this one uses satay sauce as its base. Of course the satay sauce is different from the usual ones.

RM0.80 per stick. Our total came up to RM60.40 including drinks so RM15.10 each. Its reasonable but I would say that there isn't that much choice to pick from. As for the taste, it gets tastier the more things you dip in. Something different that you can't find everywhere.

Followed the GPS to this place for the famous ochien (fried oyster egg). We kept walking around but couldn't find the shop but the GPS showed that we have already reached the spot. So we walked into this lorong and saw..

Luckily we had one person who could read Chinese because if not, we wouldn't have been able to find it.

It was actually pretty good and as you all may have already know, I don't eat oysters. It was fried enough and it wasn't too oily. You can really taste the egg and the chilli that came with it matched nicely.

And that was all. We headed home after that. Basically, there isn't much food in Malacca and there is really nothing that made me feel that I want more or I miss it.

Owh! Let me tell you this..
We were walking around trying to find the ochien shop when we walked pass Hotel Mimosa. Ian and I wanted to use the toilet so we went in. We pretended like we were guests there and found the lobby toilet. The receptionist and workers there stared at us but we went in anyway. As we were walking out through the entrance, the fat malay woman receptionist said loudly "TAK TAU MALU"!

I swear I almost wanted to walk back in and spit on the floor. I mean people using toilet also tak tau malu? Which law states that you can't use the hotel lobby toilet if you're not staying there?

It Used To Be All Studies..

2011-01-28T12:12:00.004+08:00

I don't know if there are still people who read my blog or not but the main reason I started blogging wasn't so that others could read about me anyway. =]

Its 2011, almost February already. How time flies.

I am still 20, hitting 21 in September, more clueless than I have been throughout my entire teen years.

I don't know what job I am supposed to apply which is why I'm basically just randomly dropping my resume.

I don't know if I'm still keen on taking up CFA but I have this feeling that a basic Bachelor's Degree is not enough.

I don't know..

If there is a writer or journalist job that specializes in Kpop, I'd definitely take it. Hehe..going off topic here but hey, since when did I ever stayed on topic when I blog? =]

Outing With Bestie 17th January 2011

2011-01-18T21:05:00.005+08:00

Went CNY shopping with Eve yesterday at Sunway Pyramid. Its been months since we last met up. There were a few awkward silent moments at the start but everything went back to normal almost immediately after.

We had lunch and then walked around. Had a good chat with her to catch up on things and also to reminiscence the past. We've actually known each other since Form 2 and have been bestfriends since then. Come to think of it, this would be our 9th year as friends. The things we did when we were younger..were pretty amazing. Where most of our friends became wilder, we ended up being more quiet than before. =/

And we did our famous 'fitting room' session again. If you look through my Facebook pictures, most of the photos I took with her were in the fitting room and quite a few were when we were sitting on the floor as well. Its a good way to rest our feet from walking in heels. =D

I think if you've been reading my blog for years, you would have already known of her but for those of you who are new, this is Evelyn. Shes a year older than me (1989) and is currently working as a beautician. And I know shes hot and pretty and all that but sorry to burst your bubble, shes already taken..and I'm quite confident that she will be marrying her current boyfriend in a few years time. Too bad~ =P

Anyway, thats pretty much it. Nothing special happened so nothing much to say. Atleast I'm feeding you with non Kpop related pictures so be thankful. Hehee~ BYE!

Party In The CUBE

2011-01-14T13:01:00.019+08:00

Yesterday was the DiGi Live Kpop Party 2011 at Stadium Negara, KL. It was infact a Cube party featuring BEAST, 4Minute and G.Na. (My pictures are terrible..sorry =/)

I waited in line with my brother at around 4.30pm. Some started the line before 12pm which I then thought was pretty useless since my brother and I managed to get the front seat and nearest to the middle part as we possibly can go. It started raining at around 5.30pm and there was no shelter so those waiting in the queue without umbrellas were wet. I even tried to squeeze in under the umbrella of the girls in front of me. -.-

We were allowed to go in at 6.30pm and it was freaking cold inside, partly because of the aircon and partly because of being wet. Stadium got aircon..I had no idea. My first time seeing BEAST/4Minute in Singapore, I was drenched in sweat. This time I was drenched in rain. But both times, I never regretted a single thing.

Anyway, everyone kept screaming at the MVs which were playing repeatedly on the big screens inside the stadium. They did their fanchants and sang along while waiting for the show to start. All the random screaming got me really confused.

And then we saw..BEAST members walking on the top near their tents, stopped and stared at us while everyone started screaming, walked off coolly before waving at us. The crowd went wild. And then we were back to waiting for the show to start, singing along while staring at the tent where the artists were in.

On and off, they kept opening the tent a little and peeked out, crowd scream in delight. One of the BEAST members even stuck his hand out (only his hand) and waved to us which of course sent the crowd wild once again. I also caught a glimpse of 4Minute dancing in the tent to HuH, which was playing on the big screens. =D

Opening act was at 8pm by someone..I really don't know who and I'm pretty sure nobody cared or paid any attention to him at all. Everyone stared at the tent and screamed when the artists opened up to see what was happening. Blur picture because..well I was staring at the tent too.

Then came the MC who talked and talked and talked until I got abit bored and fed up. I think he was trying to stall some time for the artists to get ready but he kept repeating the same thing over and over.

And finally G.Na appeared on the stage from the bottom. She sang 3 songs only. First was '꺼져 줄게 잘 살아'. I was so overwhelmed at the sight of her that I felt like I was going to tear. Shes so gorgeous and her vocals just blew me away. When BEAST's JunHyung came out for his rap part, the screams increased.

After her first song, the MC came out and they had a short interview session. Her english was perfect but she was speaking a little too soft..or the crowd was a little too loud. She said that she was very nervous and that her 1st album is coming out soon and stuff like that.

G.Na then did a cover of Rihanna's 'Take A Bow'. She forgot the lyrics at some parts but it didn't matter because everyone was singing along with her throughout the whole song. I don't even know how I could remember the lyrics to that song but I was singing along to it as if I've been listening to it everyday. She was so nervous, it was so obvious, especially when she was trying to put her microphone on the mic stand thing and it wouldn't go in. She kept trying but was still singing. It was such a cute moment.

Her 3rd performance, which was her last song, was 'Super Solo'. She rocked the stage with her backup dancers. Really can't wait for her album to come out!

Next on stage was 4Minute. They sang HuH, I My Me Mine, Highlight, Muzik and Hot Issue. The first time I saw them in Singapore, they didn't perform I My Me Mine and Highlight but they performed What A Girl Wants. So it was nice to see them rocking it out with different songs. They interacted with the crowd and teased us alot, especially HyunA! I find it interesting how shes the whining baby on Invincible Youth but the sexy singer on stage. They talked in simple English and I think they did very well.

Finally, BEAST. It was obvious that most of the fans who were there were B2uties. The screaming fangirls went crazy when the boys came out. They performed Special, Soom, Shock, Oasis, Beautiful and V.I.U. Great interactions with the crowd and like 4Minute, BEAST sang some different songs than they did in Singapore. Alot of fan service throughout their stage. I looked down at one point and looked up to find YoSeob's face on the big screen! He was staring straight at the camera and waving. So cute I started spazzing so much I forgot to take a picture.

The boys conversed in simple English with us to introduce their next song and stuff. They mentioned that GiKwang was not there and that he misses the Malaysian fans and then if I'm not mistaken, DongWoon said "But we don't miss him". Silly people. X]

Overall, the party was a blast. I really enjoyed myself besides the fact that it was too short. The party ended at 9.30pm. Honestly, I haven't been listening to their songs at all lately which I was pretty afraid that I wouldn't be able to remember the lyrics to sing along and do the standard fanchants but when the music came on, everything just started coming out of my mouth. I was either singing along, screaming my lungs out or clearing my throat to scream somemore. =]

Cube artists, never fail to impress. Vocals, dance skills, fan service, they were basically just enjoying the stage. Instead of trying hard to perfect a stage, they played around while still managing to perform flawlessly.

A great way to start a year. I'm sure more Kpop concerts will be in Malaysia this year. I can't wait for B-I-G to the Bang! There was someone waving a BigBang lightstick yesterday. =D

First Kpop Concert in 2011

2011-01-12T14:48:00.003+08:00

I witnessed my first Kpop act in Singapore last year. And tomorrow I shall scream my voice dead for the same 2 groups and an awesome rookie solo artiste.

4 Minute, BEAST and G.Na live tomorrow! Not all that excited honestly..because its going to be crazy far and not in the middle so..yea. Probably don't even need to bring my camera. Lolx.

Anyway, I'm happy I get to finally watch G.Na and listen to her amazing vocals. I guess I'll go listen to all their songs tonight to prep up for tomorrow.

Not going to remember the fanchants because I can't register all of their full names into my brain. I'll just do the standard shouting and skip the names chants..

'Lee JinKi, Kim JongHyun, Kim KiBum, Choi MinHo, Lee TaeMin, SHINee'

The only names I have carved in me. =D

Hmm..

2011-01-05T01:38:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking..

I don't actually feel like having a career in my field of studies which is Economics and Finance. I mean its of no secret anymore that Business has always been something I despise. When I decided to major in Economics and Finance, it was a sudden and very impromtu choice. I just one day woke up and felt that Management and Marketing is so boring and anybody with crapping skills and a certain amount of common sense would be able to do it so I wanted to challenge myself with something horrid.

But really, to spend the rest of my life, probably 20 or 30 years doing Finance? That is really not something that I would enjoy.

I hear people saying that its just a start, you can always change your job when you want to but I don't really think it would work out that way.

Probably once I find a job in the Finance area, I would be working nonstop to be at the top. If after a few years in that area and I feel that I totally regret the choice, I still won't stop at all because a few years of my youth in that area would probably have increased my chances of advancing. To dump that after suffering for another field which I would have to start from scratch again..?

I don't know, maybe at that moment I would just move on but right now, I definitely wouldn't let myself do that.

Sigh..my desire to travel is so overwhelming now I feel like just randomly booking a flight to somewhere and run away the next day.

A New Year~

2011-01-01T02:31:00.003+08:00

Hello people! Its 2011, yo!!

But you people are probably out getting wasted and the earliest you will see this post is on the 2nd because of a hangover. Well, not that its a bad thing but I do hope that you getting wasted is for joy and not for grief!

As for me, I'm bright and awake and very hyper!

For the first time in ever, I celebrated new year's eve by myself at home. I was supposed to follow my parents to my cousin's house for a party but then contemplated and finally decided to stay home instead.

Honestly, I was pretty emo these few days, this whole week particularly, because of the concert and all that. If you read back the past few posts, you would know roughly what happened. I tried to watch shows continually to get my mind off stuff but then got scolded for spending too much time staring at the computer. -.-''

Unlike Christmas Eve where all my cousins gathered together and there was actually things to keep me busy with, New Year's Eve was different because they all spend it with friends, except the ones whose house the party is held in, of course. So going there, no matter how long I socialize would end up in me sitting there staring into air with nothing to do at all. This will then lead to me thinking about stuff that 'was supposed to happen but didn't happen' which will make me emo and worst case, cry.

As it was the last day of 2010 and the first day of a new year, I wouldn't want to spend it in tears, which is why I decided on staying home alone.

And I actually had alot of fun on my own.

I mean, I can do anything without anybody saying anything. I spend the night streaming MBC Gayo Daejun, an end of the year Kpop song festival. And since it was live, it can be said that I was spending new year's eve with not only my boys but more than 20 idol groups, over 150 singers! They even countdown to 2011 together, although Korean time is 1 hour faster.

I had fun singing along to songs and doing fanchants alone. I almost wanted to blow up a SHINee balloon just for fun! You may think its sad and pityful but seriously, I enjoyed every minute of staying home today.

I would definitely regret it if I decided to go out instead of stay home. It would have been better if the streaming was smoother, without lags and wouldn't stop for a few seconds every few seconds but with my connection, it was already a blessing that I was able to see people move.

There, my first post of 2011!

To my 5 shining stars, its been a tough and busy year as always, and I'm sure 2011 will be even more tiring for you all since you will be debuting in Japan as well as promoting in Korea. In a few hours, you all would probably have to wake up and head to the stadium to do rehearsals. Your first concert in your own country in a few hours and the day after, I'm sure you will gain strength from your ocean.

The pearlescent sky blue ocean, the ocean that belongs to the 5 of you only.

Goodbye 2010~

2010-12-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

I don't have much to blog actually and I don't have pictures to post up because I've been looking like shit lately, even worse than usual, thanks to a great friend of mine, which I'd like to call, chronic insomnia.

No joke. I don't take naps, I read super boring books, I listen to ballads, exercise and everything but I just stare blankly at the ceiling every night. Its kind of like a daily routine already.

I don't exactly enjoy staring at the ceiling for hours every night because it keeps me thinking alot. Things like the past and the future, my studies and my life, floats in my mind very actively every night. Even ridiculous 'what if' questions invades me.

Anyway, no use whining since theres nothing much I can do about it.

Hohoho~ Say hi to MinHo~ (FYI, the boy is only 19!)
Silly boy has been hiding his abs for his solo performance in their first concert. I think this picture doesn't really define his abs but theres not alot of pictures from the Japan concert. I guess I'll just have to wait for the Korean fans to drown me in high resolution pictures after their Korean concert.

I'm guessing this would be my last post for 2010. I won't do a recap on the year because I'm not good at stuff like that. I'll be spending new year's eve at cousin's place..again. Sucks when all your friends are attached at times like this.

I would have stayed home and streamed MBC Gayo Daejun live but unfortunately, my connection will never make it. Sucks being in Malaysia with shitty connection. Its been really bad lately. Usually 800MB-1GB video takes about 6 hours to download (on a good day). Please slap yourself right now, I know what you're thinking. These days, it takes atleast 3 hours to download a 150MB file! I've got so many shows to download but its just impossible. Sigh.

Anyway! For those who have been reading my posts, thank you very much. I know I've totally lost my life to Kpop and my posts are mostly all on that but I'll try to do a better job next year.

Thank you! May all of you have a happy new year! May 2011 be filled with joy and happiness and dreams come true moments.

The Pearlescent Sky Blue Ocean

2010-12-27T14:46:00.003+08:00

Crying now.

Their vocals are so amazing.

What I could have witnessed in person instead of fancams.

A dream 5 young talented boys shared even before debut,

Finally fulfilling it together infront of 24,000 fans, twice on the same day,

In a country that don't speak their language, Japan,

Embraced by the pearlescent sky blue ocean.

The efforts that you have put in,

The sleepless nights and hectic schedules,

The tears that you've shed and the pain that you've been through,

The doubts that you've overcomed and the hates that you've suffered,

Everything was worth it.

Shine, is to give light.

SHINee, is to receive light.

This is just the start,

No matter how big your dreams are,

No matter how hard it may be,

No matter what happens from here on,

You will forever be shining, brighter and brighter with every passing day.

September 2009 was when I first started this journey,

Never have I regretted entering this fandom,

And never will I ever regret becoming part of SHINee World.

For your concert in Korea on the 1st and 2nd of January,

Where I was supposed to be,

I pray that you will once again shine even brighter than you did in Japan.

Yes, there are rumors that SHINee will head to Singapore either in May or July next year for their concert. Of course it would be great..but nothing beats heading to Korea for it..nothing.

Its Almost Christmas..

2010-12-21T15:12:00.004+08:00

Its almost Christmas. Time just flies. I remember being stressed out about Korea. I remember crying my eyes out every night after I was told that I can't go. I remember staring at the line that says 'sold out' in Korean on GMarket 30 minutes after the concert tickets went on sale.

And Christmas is this Saturday. New year is next week. I was supposed to end 2010 freezing my butt off in Seoul, probably wandering around the streets at night or eating at the road side stalls. I was supposed to start the first day of 2011 in Jamsil Stadium with thousands of Shawols waving the pearlscent sky blue lightstick and screaming fanchants, welcoming the new year with the 5 shining stars who have changed my life.

Using the word 'supposed' means it will never happen.

I hope they rest well. I really think that they shouldn't schedule their concerts at the end of the year because of the hectic year end shows. They've been busy with award shows, which they picked up a good amount of awards this year, year end music festivals like KBS, MBC, SBS gayo daejuns coming up at the end of this month, first concert in Japan which includes 2 shows in 1 day, 2 shows in 2 days for their concert in Korea..and all these does not include the scheduled performances on some side shows, radio shows, current obligations in variety shows and preparations.

Recent performances displayed obvious lack of sleep and exhaustion from their faces eventhough they continued to smile and perform at their very best. It can't be helped, they are idols anyway. I hope 2011 will be an amazing year for my boys and that they get to spend more time on their studies as well. =]

Red Devils Invades Stamford Bridge!

2010-12-15T21:43:00.005+08:00

It should not come as a surprise to you that I am a Manchester United supporter. This has been a fact since my days in Taylor’s. If you do not know of this piece of information about me, its either you have just met me recently or do not know me at all.

I haven’t really been watching any football this season and seriously, quite a lot has changed. The Big 4 don’t exist anymore. Liverpool has been deteriorating even more this season than the previous one. Arsenal seems to be improving a tad bit but still lost to the Devils thanks to our Asian pride, Park Ji Sung! Chelsea started off pretty well but have been doing quite badly recently.

This Sunday, 19th of December 2010, Manchester United takes on Chelsea at Stamford Bridge! These 2 teams have always put on a great show and so this match is not something that you would want to miss.

Watch this exciting match with your friends and family at the live viewing party in Padang Timur PJ with the largest TV screen in South East Asia!

You can run to ‘The Stadium’ at The World of EveryoneConnects to catch up with the latest Manchester United news before the match day..or ofcourse, you can just click on ‘The Stadium’ at the bottom of the screen.

Besides that, you can post your comments and feedbacks of the match at ‘Kopitiam’ at the same website too! Chat and discuss with everyone else but please refrain from degrading the other team or players. Always be humble (eventhough we know United is going to thrash Chelsea =P).Again, you can choose to run there or just click.

You can also get exclusive TM Man United merchandise and FAN ZONE seats when you sign up for any TM products or services! Yay~

Lastly, like the EveryoneConnects Facebook page and get a cool EC wristband at the TM booth!

Remember, the Red Devils will be invading Stamford Bridge this Sunday! Don’t miss out!

Its Chicken Day~

2010-12-14T01:43:00.001+08:00

Meet SHINee's leader, Onew. He is a delicate young boy whose talent is overflowing. He does not do most of the talking during interviews but instead just do the opening and the closing. He seems to be bullied by the rest of his members who are younger than him. He is clumsy and often hurts himself but laughs it off together with everybody else. He don't show his tears and always just put on a smile on his face no matter what happens.

He is a great leader. He don't do the talking because he gives his members the opportunity to shine. He guides his younger members and gives them a push of confidence and assurance. He hides his tears and sadness but cries silently in the car or back in the dorm by himself. He is a perfectionist and although he laugh at the mistakes he makes at that moment, he goes back and cries by himself.

He is an only child, who loves chicken very much although his family owns a meat shop. He bought his dad a car with the money that he earned. He composes songs and has an amazing voice that melts my heart. He is the kindest, most caring person I have come across. He is a great singer, dancer, host, MC, and has completed 2 musicals this year with great reviews.

He is 21 (internationally), 22 (Korean) today. He is my leader. He is Lee JinKi.

Happy birthday, dubu!

Happy Birthday, My Flaming Charisma

2010-12-08T23:10:00.008+08:00

It was sometime in October 2009 when I first laid my eyes on this boy. I was never a Korean fan, the only thing that linked me and Korea was probably BoA and her songs. But on that very day as I was flipping channels, I stopped at the sight of him.

Let's Go Dream Team Season 2, I never missed an episode after that day. This boy who looked so shy at first, smiling silently and politely, totally changed when it was his turn. The determine look on his face was a sight that I still have pasted in my head.

He taught me how to be brave, that no matter what happens we have to move forward. Even if its something that we fear, we cannot just stand still, but we run towards it and conquer that fear. Everytime I think about him, I tell myself, 'I won't give up..I can't give up'.

There are times when we are faced with troubles. There are times when we make mistakes. There are times when we fall down. He taught me that its okay to cry and to feel sad. Whats most important is to know when to pick yourself up, to see these troubles as challenges and to understand that these mistakes that we make only allow us to make better decisions in the future.

There are times when we cannot control the things that happen. There are times when we are in a forced situation where we despise. He taught me that even under these circumstances, we can still shine in our own way. Instead of blaming others for the situation you are in, its better to try even harder to overcome the obstacles that you are faced with.

He taught me how to dream again. People say that 'the sky is the limit', I tell myself to go beyond the sky. While others may laugh at me for being ridiculous, I will continue working towards the top.

He taught me how to accept myself as who I am, that there will be people who won't approve of me no matter how hard I try. It doesn't matter how many people despise me, hate me and try to put me down, what matters most is those who supports me, encourage me and stand by my side. Because of him, I learnt that its important to be strong enough to ignore those haters and to try even harder to prove them wrong.

There are times when we feel tired and restless. There are times when we think that 'I've reached my limit' or 'I can't go on anymore'. He taught me that even when we feel like we are too exhausted to continue, we must still push towards the end. Because of him, I learnt that 'my limit' was far away from what really is my limit.

I have truly learnt alot from this boy. Eventhough he is a year younger than me, he has achieved so much more than I have. Even when he was at a younger age, he was determined and sure of what he wants in life. I think to myself all the time, 'What was I doing when he was already doing vocal training, dance lessons, language classes, keeping his grades up and sitting a bus from Incheon to Seoul and back again almost everyday?'

I see this boy change from 2008 till now. From the silent, awkward boy that you may not even notice him if he stood next to you, to a confident and outspoken heartthrob. He may not have the greatest voice but he certainly has a good voice that is still being discovered. I honestly think all he lacks in his voice is confidence but I can see it now when he sang the same song he did before and now.

He may not be the greatest dancer but he dances better than alot of them out there. He writes practically all the raps in SHINee's songs but he never got any acknowledgement for it, yet he tries his best. He is now not only a singer but also an actor and an MC. This talented boy will make wonders if he isn't already doing it.

To the flaming charisma who changed my life, to the silly dork who never fails to make me smile, to the most competitive person I know, to the fatherly figure who plays with the kids, to the dongsaeng who is loved by his hyungs and noonas, to the kind soul who always support and assure his members with hugs and pats on their backs, to the person who wanted to be a professional soccer player but was forbidden to by his soccer coach father, to the boy who was taught by his parents to listen to others, to this boy called Choi MinHo,

Happy 19th Birthday! Happy 20th in Korean years!

생일축하해요 우리민호~ 뭘해도힘내주새요!

DiGi Live Kpop Party 2011 Pre-Sale

2010-12-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

I was at One Utama early in the morning for the DiGi Live Kpop Party 2011 launch. I reached there with my parents at 10.30am and started queuing up while they walked around.

This was the queue infront of me at 10.30am. It seems that some of them hardcore B2uties (BEAST's fans), 4nias (4Minute's fans) and G.Na fans started lining up since the night before.

If you are clueless about this event, its a launch for a concert on the 13th of January 2011 featuring Cube's BEAST, 4Minute and G.Na, at Stadium Negara. This is the first time Malaysia is having such a widescale Kpop concert, which many Kpop fans have been dying for.

But since this is the first time Malaysia is having such a concert, I'm guessing Malaysian Kpop fans are not educated enough on what time you need to start the line. A small crowd started joining the line a little after 11am but majority of the people came at 12pm or later.

Well, the event was scheduled to start at 12pm and end at 8pm, which explains why they came at that time. There were easily more than 200 people lining up by 11.30am. I was number 96. Only the first 100 got numbered stickers. The first 100 gets limited edition autographed goodies but I think the remaining 10 (90-100), which includes me, only got biscuits. Felt damn cheated okay.

I was like 'err..so whats this sticker for?' Then this lady incharge took my sticker off and gave me a packet of biscuits. I can bet that my expression at that moment was, 'Are you kidding me?'

But anyway, I managed to get 2 tickets for my bro and I to party in the Cube! Waited all the way to 2.30pm for that. I don't think their management is all that efficient. It took so long because you have to activate some package thing and wait for Digi to send you an SMS for confirmation bla bla bla. I was perspiring like crazy, especially since I had to take the extra step of reloading 2 phones first and then activating both and on the other hand pay for the tickets and get the tickets and then the lucky draw which I got 2 more packet of biscuits! -.-

It was a pretty fun experience actually. Seeing B2uties and 4nias squeeling in delight when they won passes to welcome or send off their idols or to appear on the TV broadcasts that they will be going on. I was actually thinking, 'Am I supposed to squeel like that too if I got it? But I'm not that interested..' =X

I saw Shawols, Cassies, ELFs and SONEs lining up. This basically just means that Kpop fans will try to attend every single Kpop event even if it does not feature our favourite idols because we know its worth it.

I'm excited. I can't wait to see G.Na! I can't wait to hear her amazing vocals! I've seen BEAST and 4Minute perform a few months ago in Singapore, probably at a nearer distance that this time, but I'm definitely looking forward to another amazing show.

I'm kind of having this thought where because I don't get to go for my boys' first concert, I'm being compensated with passing my finals and this Digi Live party..which sucks real bad because nothing can be compared to fulfilling a wish and a promise to myself and to be able to see my boys after so many missed opportunites.

I miss my sunshines. I'm so glad everything is working well for them. It was a much rougher road, probably the first time they are met with such obstacles ever since their debut. I'm glad that MinHo has recovered from his injury and Jjong's injury is also fully healed. He said that he can dance and run around now. =]

I'm glad that they are finally having their first concert soon. First 2 shows in Japan and then 2 shows in Korea. I feel so proud of them and seeing how much each member has improved in vocals, dance skills, variety skills and self confidence makes me tear.

I get alot of people saying why would a group of boys call themselves SHINee (pronounced as shiny). At first, I had that thought too but after I found out what it meant, I felt that it suited them very much.

Shine, is to give light. SHINee, is to receive light.
My sunshines, forever receiving light, forever shining bright. =')

My Last Semester Results

2010-12-02T21:59:00.003+08:00

Today is Judgement Day.

I received my judgement around 6.45-7pm earlier.

International Financial Management C 68

Treasury Management P 50

Economics of Money & Banking C 65

Business in Asia P 57

I miraculously passed everything and don't need to prolong my terrible journey in Monash.

I think it seriously is a miracle that I was able to pass Treasury because I totally screwed up the whole calculations part which cost 40 marks in total. Maybe I did well in the theory part, that I'm not sure but whoever it was that marked my paper, I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart. I mean, 50 on the dot! Less one mark would mean another RM3k++ gone!

So, the unit I expected to fail, I managed to hang by a thread. Business in Asia revolves around history of China, HK, India, South Korea and Japan. How they manage to boost their economy, what approach they used, which industry they targetted, in what sequence did it happen and the year that it happened. I have never been good at history. For a person who failed every single Sejarah paper except for PMR and SPM, achieving 57 in this unit has been more than satisfactory to me. And considering the fact that I had this paper and Treasury on the same day made it another miracle to be thankful for.

I'm a tad bit disappointed about IFM. I thought that it would have been atleast a Distinction and getting a 68, which is 2 marks away from a D, is a pain in the ass. I don't remember what questions came out but I know that I didn't apply the numbers to the cases when I was asked to..basically because I didn't know how to.

Econs of Money & Banking, I again, don't remember anything about the paper but I guess what came out was satisfactory.

I don't know. I was scared but now that I have gotten my results and have confirmed that I'll be graduating in March next year, I don't feel anything. I'm glad and relieved but I'm not thrilled at all. In a way, because I won't be able to see my boys but in another, I'm feeling empty and quite lost.

Basically, these 3 years of my degree has been a horrifying journey for me in terms of studying. All I could remember was the crazy workload and the suffering sleepless nights. Economics and Banking & Finance major, thats me alright, but I'm not exactly proud of it. With my overall points being so low, its not something worth boasting at all.

So, the question now is..where do I go from here?

Considering CFA but the failure rate is more than 50%..thats a crazy number.

Aahhh..whatever. I'll just keep slacking around for now.

After Finals Celebration Nov 16th

2010-12-01T15:20:00.006+08:00

Lazy to blog. Don't quite remember anything special on that day. Basically, went to Neway for karaoke session, headed to Sunway Pyramid's Snowy for a drink, left for ShinYi's boyfriend's house to wait for him, went for bubble tea somewhere, headed for Thai dinner somewhere and then pasar malam somewhere. I don't remember where the somewhere is. Its around the area of Old Klang Road or something.

More pictures on Facebook. Connection is too shitty for me to upload all the pictures.

Short aka Audrey aka Eng Chuan aka U

ShinYi, Magan, Aaron

PuiYee, KimSeng

It was a day after my finals which explains why I look so terrible.

Anyway, I have alot on my mind but I'll just lay off the keyboard to avoid annoying you people. Judgement day tomorrow. Amen.

A Liar To Myself

2010-11-29T11:17:00.002+08:00

If you're not interested in reading an emo post about something Kpop related, I suggest you close this page right now and come back another time.

Ever since I've been hit back to reality, all that goes though my mind is 'I'm a liar'.

I'm a big liar to myself. All the time, I've been telling myself, 'I will definitely go to their first concert' and 'The day I go to Korea will be the day I see my boys' first concert'.

Naturally, I've managed to establish the mindset that 'Yes, I will definitely be there'. I started thinking, 'owh, I'll go Apgujeong and see the SM Building and go shop in Everysing' or 'I'll go to MyeongDong and shop at the bigger Everysing and head to SPAO'.

But after all that, I was told that I can't go. And now, I feel like shit because I've been lying to myself over and over. Everything that I onced missed, I told myself 'Its okay, I will definitely be there for their first concert', which I may add, that I have missed alot.

Do you know how it feels like to truly believe in a person and then suddenly find out that you have been putting all your trust into somebody who was lying to you all along?

Well, I know now how that feels like. And for that lying bitch to be myself makes it 100 times worst than if it was someone else. I can hate another person but I can't possibly hate myself.

And you know what? Over the weekend I have managed to realise another matter.

Everytime I hear my dad say something to me, I feel as if I might just start crying. The moment he starts talking to me, I could hear those words ring in my head, 'You want to go Korea arr? Don't go la bla bla bla'.

I'm actually not surprised that this is happening at all because eventhough I didn't dare to ask him about Korea and all that, it never ever occured to me that he would have said no. It was always in my mind that he knew how much I wanted this, how long I've waited for this, how desperate I was for this, that no matter what happens, he would never say no.

But you know what, my thoughts were proven to be wrong.

Tomorrow..the day where I was supposed to sit at the computer and wait for the sale of the tickets to start.

And now I feel like a fool for trying to comfort myself by saying 'I would never have gotten my hands on the ticket anyway since there will be thousands of Shawols worldwide clicking at the same time'.

I'm such a fool thinking of something like that..especially when it doesn't help make me feel better at all.

Something is wrong with me..

2010-11-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

I've been wide awake for over 40 hours straight now.

Except for the 15 minutes sleep earlier, I haven't even slept a wink.

I don't know whats wrong but I've just taken insomnia to a whole new level again.

I even took medicine for cough which is supposed to make me drowsy but it doesn't seem to be working..and that was like 2 hours ago.

This is pure torture.

2010-11-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

You know what can kill me even more right now?

To fail something in my finals.

If that happens, seriously, I can see myself staring at the knife in attempt of slitting my wrist.

Xplay Shout! Awards

2010-11-22T12:29:00.003+08:00

Where were you on Saturday? Were you one of the crazy people in the picture above? Shout! Awards by Xpax is an award show to show our appreciation to not only local music talents but also the film industry as well, and it was held on Saturday, 20th November!

The crowd was amazing. Everyone was so hyped up by the performances of that night. Lightsticks were being waved in the air the whole night!

Hottie Henry Golding won the Hot Guy Award! Omg..spazz~!!! Lolx. Anyway, I really don't know how to put that night into words but it was a great experience altogether. Let me tell you the winners and then you can see the pictures. =]

Rockstar Award – Bunkface

Favorite TV Personality Award – Zizan Raja Lewak

Breakthrough Feature Award – Lagenda Budak Setan

Popstar Award – Yuna

Power Vocal Award – Faizal Tahir

Fresh TV Series – Nur Kasih

Favorite TV Program – Showdown 2010

Music Video Award – Bunkface

Flava Award – Mizz Nina

Hot Guy Award – Henry Golding

Hot Chick Award – Scha Al-ya

Coolest Radio Announcer Award – Phat Fabes

Favorite Radio Show Award – Hot FM

Best On Screen Chemistry Award – Papadom

Mobile Artiste Of The Year Award – 6ixth Sense

Breakout Award – Yuna

The Ultimate Shout! Award – Yuna

I find this abit scary. I don't know how she can dance with someone with a face like that. I would have been terrified. Owh well, its Mizz Nina afterall.

So, the Shout! Awards came and gone. I think our local acts are very underrated and its great that there is an event like this to appreciate their hard work and talent.

For more pictures of that night, click Shout! Awards. =]

Take A Step..Take It Now

2010-11-20T10:52:00.002+08:00

I've got the Korean address now all thats left is to ask my dad for permission..which is probably even harder than freezing to death in Korea.

Honestly, if it wasn't because of my results, I wouldn't be so scared to ask. Everytime when I feel like asking, tons of questions hit my head. 'What if I fail?' 'Do I deserve to go?'

Talking to my dad about serious things is never my specialty, in fact, its one of my biggest weakness. Even when it came to SG Kpop Night, I tried to walk away without even asking. It was him who brought up the conversation.

And then another question lingers in my head now, 'Will he let me go alone?'

I'm not afraid of travelling alone. I find it very exciting and it has always been one of my wish to travel alone to a country which does not speak my language. I have actually put Japan on my list but somehow Korea came up first and I really don't mind. Come to think of it, I've almost lost all my Japanese knowledge after entering this Korean craze.

The other day I suddenly couldn't even remembered what 'sorry' in Japanese was. -.-''

My point is that alot of people think that my dad won't allow me to go alone, which I understand why but refuse to even think about it. And I can't let this chance go.

If only I had a credit card, I would buy my concert ticket, wait for my results to come out and then only decide what to do. I mean, if I really fail, I'd just sell off my ticket without anyone knowing that I even bought it. But then again, I do not have that choice.

And if I get to go, should I go for both days or just one day? My parents would definitely say go for one day only because of money and all that but I really think its only natural to go for both days. I mean, the first day I would probably just go stun at the sight of my boys. Its like finally I get to see them after everything and that I kept my promise to myself to go for their first concert in Korea. Second day would be to properly absorb their amazing performances and vocals that has never failed to impress people.

But this is for November 30th. I don't even know if I'll be able to buy the ticket since its through online and I'm sure there will be a crazy crowd from all over the world standing by their computer to get their ticket when the time comes. I seriously hope the server won't crash.

BUT whats more important now is that..I need to ask. Sigh.

Will It Happen?

2010-11-19T14:38:00.002+08:00

When it comes to something that I really really want, I get scared.

People always say 'don't keep your hopes so high to avoid being so disappointed', which I think is a very relevant quote.

When I want something really really badly, I always go towards the stage where I can almost feel it in my grasp. Its so near that I can almost guarantee that I will get it. But things don't always go your way. Some things are deemed 'too good to be true', which happens all the time for me.

Just take SNSD's Bangkok concert for example. So near yet so far. Imagine having your parents say yes, booked the hotel and flight tickets, gotten your passport renewed, paid for the concert tickets, started making arrangements with unknown fans who will also be going, and then one bomb like a month before the concert to completely ruin everything.

That was an absolute heartbreak.

SHINee's first concert was supposed to be on December 18th and 19th. I prepared myself to forgo the concert because it was too rushed and I haven't saved up enough cash and because SME was looking down on them by giving them a venue which can hold a maximum of 4,000 people.

But then came the news of a change in venue and date. Seoul Olympic Stadium which can hold almost 15,000 people on January 1st and 2nd. Tickets go on sale November 30th 7pm through Gmarket, which I heard you need a Korean address to buy. My heart dropped.

But then, a friend of mine..or my brother's actually, said that he could ask his Korean friend for her address. Hopes went up! I don't know if she will allow me to use her address but atleast theres some hope. Its currently winter in Korea so I'll probably freeze to death because I've got no winter clothes and will not spend money on it but if it really happens, it will definitely be worth turning into ice.

Then again, my results will be released on the 2nd of December. I'm freaking out so badly because I'm not confident in passing all 4 units. But if I get to buy my concert tickets on the 30th and I failed something, my parents would kill me. I would feel all the guilt and the fact that I don't deserve to go for the concert at all.

And I can't buy the tickets myself without letting them know because I need a credit card! So, I'm praying hard for a miracle to happen. 2010 is supposed to be my year. Let me pass all 4 units, let me go for my concert, let me freeze to death, let me graduate in March. Please don't show me a repeat of that horrible terrifying moment where I found out I failed Project Management. That recurring nightmare..

Oh my god..I feel like I'm having a panic attack now.

Weekend in Singapore 6-7th Nov 2010

2010-11-17T16:20:00.004+08:00

I was in Singapore on the 6th and 7th of this month, if you didn't already know. The main purpose was to attend my mum's grandma's birthday celebration. 4 families from KL headed to Singapore on Friday but I only went on Saturday morning with my parents so that I could spend one more day studying for my finals.

Traffic was good so we reached Tuas immigration in less than 3 hours. Had a little trouble finding my bro's apartment but still managed to reach. Picked him up (and my 'Hello' poster! =D) before heading for lunch. We had the famous Katong Laksa!

First time eating noodles without chopsticks! They don't provide chopsticks so it was a pretty different experience. The laksa cannot be found in Malaysia..or atleast I have not seen it anywhere here before. It tasted pretty different and was not bad at all. I don't remember the price but I remember it being reasonable..if you don't convert it to RM of course.

Headed to the hotel after that, lazed around, got ready for dinner, headed to ShangRi-La. Met up with the rest of my aunts and uncles and cousins at the cocktail party and met alot of distant relatives that I have never met before.

When I was younger, I was told that I have a distant uncle who was only a few years older. On that day, I met another distant uncle who is 13 years old. I have an uncle who is 7 years younger than me! Amen.

The food wasn't really up to standard. Some were too salty some were too sweet. And it wasn't just a tad bit saltier than normal but really really really really salty! If I'm not mistaken, the super salty dish was the sharksfin soup. After just one spoon I could feel my throat turn dry and I was super thirsty already. No exaggerations! Honest.

After dinner, hanged around in my uncle's hotel before heading back to my hotel and sleep. Next morning, breakfast then met up with the Lims' for shopping around Orchard. Then dinner at Tony Romas! But it wasn't all that good this time when compared to the first time. Maybe because its a different branch. =/

Reached home at about 1am and totally crashed.

Overall, it was a pretty enjoyable weekend..very very enjoyable in fact, if comparing to the days of crazy studying I went through right after that. Not many pictures taken because the lighting during dinner was too dark and orange.

KimHyunJoong will be in Singapore from 1st-3rd December. 2AM autograph session on 2nd December. Mnet concert featuring 2PM, 2AM, MBLAQ, BEAST and MissA somewhere in December. SongJoongKi will be there on the 19th! Seriously, Singapore has been crazy lucky this year. =/

Finals, In A Nutshell

2010-11-16T10:44:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting for the plumber to finish repairing the pipes and for my mum to send me out, Tumblr is not working and I don't want to start watching a show now, so I'll blog.

I just finished my finals yesterday. Final semester (subject to changes).

My first paper, International Financial Management was on the 29th of October. First time I had to take a paper so early since exams only started on the 28th. Thats the problem with taking electives. The papers spring up in very odd times. =/

I think I did okay. That is given that my lecturer/tutor/marker does not pinpoint explanations and relations to case studies that much. I remembered some messy calculations and almost missed out one part for capital budgeting, which I last minute managed to squeeze in but the numbers were really weird and didn't really make sense so..I'm not that confident in that.

I went to Singapore to attend a family dinner on the 6th of November and came home the next night. It was ironic how much I felt I sacrificed for my finals. If you don't remember, I gave up the chance to go for SG Kpop Night one week before my first paper and ironically, one week after my first paper, I headed to Singapore. I was traumatized at the thought of it.

But because my mum really wanted to attend her grandma's birthday dinner and especially since all the rest of my aunts and uncles and cousins from here were going as well, so I just kept my thoughts to myself. It was a great thing we didn't fly there because I would have cried to the thought of 'ahh..they were here'.

Overall, I had a pretty good time. It was a nice break from all that studying but then again, it was only the first paper.

Second paper was on the 11th, Economics of Money & Banking. My lecturer was pure bullshit in this one. His notes were useless and I practically didn't even learn a single thing the whole semester from him. I'm surviving on this unit by purely self-studying.

I don't quite remember how it went but if I'm not mistaken, it went fine. But then again, everytime I feel that I did fine for an Economics paper, it turns out really really not fine. =X

Then finally, yesterday 15th was the final day. I had 2 papers yesterday, one Finance one Economics and seriously, both units are totally unrelated at all and have so much information to digest, it was one of the most difficult days of my life..til date.

Treasury Management was first. I was counting on the calculations instead of theory questions but I almost died in the exam hall. Calculations were so messy and I couldn't think straight. The questions were not very staightforward and I got confused all the way. That plus not enough time was the ultimate blow. I'm hanging by a thread on this paper. If the marker would be kind enough and generous enough to give marks, I would be on the borderline of passing only.

I just screwed up so badly that I believe I don't even deserve to cry. Everyone else seem to think it was okay, so maybe I'm just dumb or stupid. It was the first time in my entire 3 years of my degree that I really wanted to bang my head on the wall in the middle of the exam.

Regardless, I had to buck up for my next paper, Business in Asia. Another Economics unit that my lecturer was pure useless. Can you believe that he was dozing off when the groups were doing presentations? Seriously, I saw it when I was presenting and I almost wanted to smack him with the notes in my hand.

Business in Asia is like history. We are supposed to know about Japan, Korea, India, China, HK and the Asian Financial Crisis. We were expected to remember the specific year, what happened, the figures for growth or whatsoever. Like, seriously, who the hell cares? How is this supposed to help me get a decent job after I graduate?

Anyway, history was never my thing. I failed all my Sejarah exams except for SPM! So, naturally, I freaked out. Luckily, it didn't turn out that bad. I managed to answer all the questions and practically threw out whatever that I could remember regardless of whether it was what the question wanted or not, hoping that my lecturer will think 'ohh, atleast she reads and remembers something' and gives me some marks.

Basically, I don't know if I'll be able to graduate on time without another semester. I seriously hope I don't flunk because all of it are my core units and only offered in semester 2! Which means if I flunk and am still keen to pursue Finance and Economics as my majors, I'd have to wait a year to sit for that unit. Amen.

Celcom Xplay Shout!

2010-11-15T20:55:00.003+08:00

I'm done with my finals! I think I screwed up today but I'll whine tomorrow. For now, I shall blog about Saturday (13th November 2010).

So, the much awaited Celcom Xplay Shout! party was on Saturday. If you didn't get your free passes the way I told you to, then you've certainly missed out a great night.

The party was held at The Library at e@Curve. For those who got free passes from Xpax's Facebook page, you would have gotten your one free drink but all you had to do was reload RM30 for free flow of drinks all night long! Its like they were paying you to reload your phone. =]

It was really crowded even before the event started. Everybody wanted a good seat to enjoy the performances of the night. Everybody was busy 'studying' in 'The Library'. Its an event that even our parents would be proud of. You know like when your mum asks you 'Where are you going?' and the you answer 'The Library'.

Okay, so you don't find it funny. I'll just show you pictures then. Hmmpff!

The winners for Battle of the Bands.

Mizz Nina rocking the stage~

Thanks to Celcom for allocating a bloggers station so that bloggers have places to sit and enjoy. No need to queue somemore. Jealous much? =D

It was an awesome night altogether. And I'm sure many of you had a great time partying.

For Celcom customers who missed out on the pre-party exclusively by Xplay, you stand a chance to win FREE passes to the Shout! Awards on 20th November at Stadium Bukit Jalil, simply by just downloading 3 Call Me Tones of the Mobile Content Award 2010 nominees from www.channelx.com.my.

Or for Xpax Facebook fans, just email your full name, IC and phone number to gotx@xpax.com.my with “Shout! Award Free Passes” as the subject header & you'll stand a chance to get 2 passes to catch the Shout! Awards LIVE & meet top local artistes! Don’t miss out on one of KL’s hottest award shows!

Not Dead

2010-11-12T11:37:00.001+08:00

I will blog soon!

My last 2 papers on the 15th! Wish me luck~ =]

RSS Feeds with iTalkWHOA!

2010-11-02T12:20:00.006+08:00

We’ve all heard of RSS Feeds before but really, how many of us know what it is? Except for those IT genius and people who have used it, normal internet users may not know what it can do.

RSS is short for "Really Simple Syndication".

RSS Feeds lets you to get news feeds and updates on any topics that interest you fast and easy. You don’t have to constantly check on what’s coming anymore. It delivers headlines, short summary and a link back to the full text every time an RSS news feed is updated.

If you didn’t know, iTalkWhoa! offers this feature too.

Its annoying when you have to keep typing in your email address and other details when you want to subscribe to updates from blogs or newsletters or you’re always book marking or adding pages to your favorites list. You can stop doing that with the RSS feed in iTalkWhoa! because you will automatically get updates on your iTalkWhoa! account. Rest assured as there won’t be any spam.

If you are a content owner or publisher, you are able to distribute your contents without being sent to the junk folder. This is particularly important because I seem to get quite a few important emails in my junk mail all the time. =/

This is how you configure RSS Feeds on iTalkWhoa!

Select the RSS Feeds under Mail panel and click on New Group to create a new category/group.

Pop up box [RSSFeed Category Name] will appear and please input any name for the new group – example News

Then click on button [Add]
Automatically the News Feeds will appear in current Category Panel as below:

To input any info on News category, just search for RSS News that interest you. In the example, the feeds gather from The star newspaper.

Just go to the The Star URL - http://thestar.com.my/

Scroll further down till the end of the webpage and you will see image as below:

The RSS icon placed on the right side and click on it.

You may input or place any RSS in iTalk Whoa! for any website that have the RSS icon such as,
• Any newspaper – The star [http://thestar.com.my/rss/]
• At PC/Entertainment website – Apple [http://www.apple.com/rss/]
• At blogger website

Shown above the link for RSS Feeds in The Star newspaper. Thus you can just choose any topic that interests you the most. In this example, Sports under News been selected.

Just right click on the RSS icon besides the Sports News and select ‘Copy Link Location’.

Go back to your iTalkWhoa’s account and highlight the News icon, input ‘Sports’ under ‘Feed Description’ and paste the URL copied previously.

The Sport RSS URL will appear and click ‘Add New’ button and the Sport RSS will appear in the Feed Name Box as below:

To view all the RSS Feeds for sport, just click on Sports under News at the Mail Panel:

All the Sports highlights will be displayed instantly and you can just click on any link to read/view the full story.

Its that simple and convenient! I’m going to add all my Kpop sites in for my daily dose of feeds now! Bye~

2010-11-01T12:12:00.002+08:00

Don't judge a person's tears when you have no idea what has happened.

You may think its stupid or useless or unnecessary but you have never even put your mind to think about what those tears meant.

And if you don't know and or don't even care, do not ever jump to conclusions with your insensitivity that will break that person down into more tears with your crude words.

Don't think that someone can be immuned to words as crude as those that you throw just because its not the first time or the second or even the third.

Don't judge when you don't know.

SG Kpop Night 2010; The day I shed 1 litre of tears

2010-10-24T13:40:00.002+08:00

SG Kpop Night 2010, came and gone.

It started with an SMS from my brother all the way from Singapore on 25th August 2010, 8.35pm.

"Puding. Go online. Ur gonna die when u read the news"

That was when all hells went loose in my head. 'Please not SHINee!' was all I could think of. But life doesn't always go your way. It wasn't just SHINee but SNSD, Big Bang and FT Island. 4 top notch Korean idol groups on 1 stage together with another 3 rookie groups; Infinite, DNA and ZE:A.

I was very determined on going, not just because my boys will be there but because I know that its impossible to see SHINee, SNSD, BigBang and FT Island on 1 stage ever again.

After much thought, I told myself that my dad won't allow me to go for it since the concert will be very near my finals. I settled on that thought.

But my dad talked to me and said that I could go if I wanted to. All I had to do was throw in more effort for my finals before the concert. For a few hours, I was beyond the clouds. It was like a dream come true.

'YES! I CAN SEE MY BOYS IN PERSON!' was all I could think about.

It seemed as though I was blinded by the joy that I fail to realize that I had my finals in stake. And this being my last semester, the pressure mounted up and finally hit me back to reality. I don't know if whether I could pass all my papers even if I didn't attend the concert.

And that night itself, I told my brother that I would skip this concert. I remember crying my eyes out that night. It hurts very much more when you give up the opportunity yourself than when you are denied the opportunity by others.

My parents were surprised by my desicion to forgo it. Honestly, I was too. When they asked why, immediately and almost automatically, my tears started flowing. I don't know exactly what made me make that desicion, but I made it.

I thought I would be fine.

Untill the day started arriving. Untill the time where people started counting down the days to the concert. Everytime I see 'xx days more to Kpop Night!' I felt the sting.

And finally the day arrived. I tried my best not to think about it. Untill my brother SMSed me from Singapore right before entering the venue.

"Gg excited like hell. My shirt pink, hair pink, lightsaber pink, lightstick pink. Ok off phone bye bye"

And I started crying. I started thinking and then cried. I walked into my room filled with posters and then cried.

MTV had a 1 hour special an hour before the concert started which features all the groups that were performing. And I watched the Lucifer MV and then cried. Everytime I think about it, I had tears.

I stayed away from Twitter because I couldn't handle the live updates. But someone was updating via Facebook. -.-

Later in the night, my brother told me about it. How it went and stuff. I saw pictures and fancams from his friends and from YouTube. And then I cried again.

People who are not in a fandom won't understand why I cried so much, even some people in a fandom wouldn't understand it either.

The thing that floats in my head is that I gave it up on my own will. That slashed me hard. Its not that I couldn't have gone, its just that I gave it up. I felt terrible about it.

I even went to the extent of comforting myself by saying, 'its okay, JongHyun isn't there to perform. When I see them, I'll see them as 5, not 4.' It didn't really help anyway. Sigh.

After watching fancams, overall, Onew messed up the first part of RingDingDong, MinHo missed out a part in Hello, but they did very well. I'm especially proud of TaeMin for covering Jjong's high notes. He seriously showed a part of his vocals that he has never shown before.

No SM Town for me since they said that Tokyo will be the last stop.

SHINee will be having their first concert in Seoul on the 18th and 19th of December 2010. The problem is that the venue can only take 4000 people max. I don't know if I could get tickets and I don't think its a tour but more of a mini concert.

So, I'm stuck here..again.

I view missing Kpop Night as a very big sacrifice. I better make sure this sacrifice is worth every single bit of it. And to do that, I need to ace my finals. 29th October, 11th and 15th November. I'll make sure all my tears don't go to waste.

Party With Local Celebs!

2010-10-23T12:30:00.003+08:00

Party people, heads up!

XPLAY is here to satisfy your needs! XPLAY is a series of music events nationwide that brings different genres of music together and rest assured, as they only bring in the best local and international DJs to give you lifetime experiences!

The 2010 Shout! Awards is back again~

For those of you who don’t have a clue about it, Shout! Awards is an entertainment award show created to celebrate the Malaysian entertainment industry. The award is a way to show appreciation to people from music, television, film and radio industry as well as the entertainment industry as a whole. And it will be happening on the 20th of November 2010!

You can stand a chance to win free passes to the Shout! Awards by downloading 3 Call Me Tones of the Mobile Content Award 2010 nominees from http://www.channelx.com.my/

Xplay Shout! is the pre-show party for Shout! Awards happening on the 13th of November 2010 at The Library e@curve to celebrate the award nominees. There will be awesome performances by the 2009 Shout! Awards winners and also DJs. You will also get a chance to mingle with the Mobile Content Award 2010 Nominees at the party!

Are you a fan of our local artistes? If you are, you’re in for a treat.

Alternative rock band, Disagree, will be there to party with you! They are most recognized for their hits such as ‘Crumbs’, ‘Scarecrow Adam’ and ‘Suicide Note’.

Hujan, a malay indie rock band, made the news early in 2009 with a tour of England financed by its Malaysian student fan base there, before returning home to play a career-defining set at the inaugural Sunburst festival in Kuala Lumpur. And they will be at the party as well.

Still not convinced you should go?

Well, there will be Mizz Nina and DJ Ash too!

Mizz Nina is the reigning queen of Malaysian hip hop scene who shot to fame as part of Malaysian hip hop group, the Teh Tarik Crew, earning two AIM nominations for the group’s full-length album “How’s The Level?” in the process.

DJ Ash is a Malaysian who started DJ-ing in 2004 in Australia and has played most of Melbourne’s finest nightclubs and bars. He revolutionized and continues to lead the Mash-Up scene in Melbourne with his residency at the famed Seven Nightclub’s Sideroom, Melbourne’s Mash-Up scene by unleashing his creativity through mixing assorted music genres in his set. He has also played in special events such for Akon, T-Pain, MC Jin, MizzNina, Too Phat’s Joe Flizzow Montell Jordan, Justin Timberlake’s dancers and Australian Idol showcase.

You can expect a hell of a party with these local acts around to entertain you!

The best thing? FREE!

All you have to do is register for your exclusive FREE invitation from the Xpax Facebook at www.facebook.com/xpaxfb

1. Join as a fan and click on the “XPLAY” tab
2. Register for a FREE invitation.
3. 1st 150 customers to register on Xpax Facebook will get Free Drinks as well! (If you are an Xpax or U.O.X. member, you’ll get 2 drinks!)

What are you waiting for? Go get your free invitation now! Support our local entertainment industry!

I know I am not exactly the best example when it comes to supporting local acts because as you all know, I’m all Kpop and Jpop. But I DO listen to Malaysian bands and singers, okay. That’s a fact!

Now, lets all support our local entertainment industries, shall we? =]

Different Flavors to a Song

2010-10-13T12:12:00.003+08:00

YUI has always been one of my favourite Japanese singers of all time. All she needs is her guitar and she can perform anywhere, even on the streets.

For YUI lovers, check out SNSD's kid leader, TaeYeon. She covered a few of YUI's songs in Korean on her Midnight Sun musical back in May/June of this year.

This is from the musical but not related to YUI.

Bonus: SNSD's Sunny's cover of Utada Hikaru's First Love. The first song that made me love Japanese way back. Both have very different voices but I think Sunny's version is sweeter.

Now, I'm not saying that the covers are done better than the originals. All have their own flavors to the songs and these songs were my daily playlists back when I was into everything Japanese. What do you think?

Jealous!

2010-10-01T14:10:00.002+08:00

My brother was the one who brought the Korean craze back home from Singapore. It is evident that the Kpop phenomenon in Singapore is much more widespread than it is in Malaysia. As I have mentioned before, Malaysians probably only classify Kpop as Wonder Girls' Nobody, which is a total understatement to the Korean music industry.

My brother and I witnessed our first Kpop live performance together in Singapore, which was at the Youth Olympic Games 2010 in August. Never would I have thought that we'll be screaming our lungs out together with so many others for 4 Minute and BEAST. That was our first.

But I'm filled with jealousy now as he is increasing his number of Kpop experiences while I'm still stuck at one.

On the 29th of September, he attended his first autograph session with G.Na! Pronounced as 'Gina' not 'G dot Na', thank you. I'm so freaking jealous!!

For non-Kpop fans, you would probably never heard of this girl if you haven't even heard of people like SNSD, SHINee, BigBang and all that. Reason being, this girl is a rookie.

She had her debut stage like only 3 months ago. So, how good is she you might be thinking?

From the first time I watched her perform on MusicBank, which is her debut stage, I immediately downloaded her album. Not only that, she sang a duet with Rain! For this autograph session, you have to buy her album and show them the receipt for evidence of the purchase in Singapore. You know what happened after it was announced?

Her albums in practically all the music stores in Singapore were sold out! No joke. No exaggerations.

All that for a rookie singer! Imagine that. Thats how good she is.

Shes pretty and her vocals are amazing! My brother said that shes very much prettier in person and her live singing is very much better than the CD recorded voice. I'm jealous because he gets to meet her and listen to her sing live!!

And she speaks perfect English too. I've tweeted this before on twitter 'this girl has amazing potential'. I mean it. Non-Kpop fans, its time you listen to what Korean singers can do. If you don't like idol groups, well, meet this solo singer who will play a huge role in spreading Kpop throughout the world.

My brother will be attending the Kpop Night Live on the 23rd October. SNSD, SHINee, BigBang, FT Island and another 3 rookie idol groups. I'm filled with jealousy!!! T_T

Hitting the big 2-0!

2010-09-30T12:20:00.002+08:00

Tuesday (28th September) was my birthday. I've finally left my teen years and have hit the big 2-0! I feel so old. At 12 midnight, I started my birthday by watching Animax's Live Power Music. It was such a coincidence that they were showing the episode where my boys performed.

ShinYi picked Pui Yee and me up from uni in the morning and we headed off to meet up with the rest of the people.

We were supposed to meet Anderson at OneUtama but he was late because he was doing some grocery shopping. Met him at Eng Chuan's house instead.

Went to the Korean village in Ampang. Wahh, I was so amazed because every shop's name was in Hangeul. All I did was stare and read the signs while they looked for parking. The Korean restaurant we went to is called 비원 (Bee Won). Good food, good environment and great company, I would say. And I finally got to try 떡볶이 (spicy rice cake)!

Celebrated together with Eng Chuan since her birthday is in October and we'll all be too busy preparing for finals to care about her. Lolx.

Photoslutting session began after food. We were the only customers there so you could imagine how noisy we were. =D

My present from the owner of the shop! 초코파이 (ChocoPie)! She asked whose birthday was it and then came back later with a box of Chocolate Pie for me. So sweet. When leaving the place, I said thank you and bowed to her and she said 생일축하해 (Happy birthday) to me!

I could have replied in Korean but somehow I didn't really dare to do it. I mean, she is pure Korean and what if I mispronounced something or said something impolite? Since Korean culture is very polite and respectful towards people who are older and theres difference in the words used for friends and for older people, I was pretty much not confident in saying anything. I said the most basic thing ever, 감사함니다 (thank you).

Went back to Eng Chuan's house and hang around. Took a group picture before heading back home.

Special thanks to the people who spent my birthday with me; ShinYi, PuiYee, EngChuan, Anderson and WenKhai~!! =]

I ended my day watching KhunToria and Adam couple WGM episodes. Before that, I managed to get my brother to order SHINee's Hello repackaged album using Paypal so that I don't have to do a bank transfer. =D

I listened to the 3 new tracks just now and I'm loving it. Their vocals are shining, expecially TaeMin's! And the Hello MV teaser is so much different than everything else that they've done and a 360 degrees change from Lucifer. I can't wait for their comeback stage tomorrow!

I'm Alive~

2010-09-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

Erm..hi?

Lolx. I don't know if people still read my blog since I've been pretty much a failed blogger ever since I got involved in Kpop.

I should retire from being a blogger and should throw my 'MissPhotoSlut' title away as well. >_<

I've just survived a crazy busy week of 3 assignments and 1 mid sem test and 1 presentation. All in 1 week. It seriously is crazy. I've totally brought 'last minute work' to a whole new level~

Well, having 1 week of break now! My finals is arriving. First paper on the 29th of October. I'm seriously freaking out already. For the first time, I feel like my brain is totally empty on all 4 units! No joke.

I've made my study plan and it starts on Monday. I can still fool around for one more day then. Hehee.

This semester is crucial to me. Its my last one before graduating and if I screw anything up, I'll have to wait a whole year to take the unit again because all of them are core units and only offered in semester 2.

I'm feeling the pressure already. Everytime my dad tells me 'its already *insert month*', my mind practically shuts itself down in denial. And having 2 papers in 1 day is not helping! Especially since Business in Asia has no textbook, which means all journals, which means no idea what they're going to ask, which means alot of memorizing of facts, and Tresury Management which have calculations and loads of theory and I don't know if they will be providing formulas because all the formulas for the calculations are crazy retarded!

Wish me lots of luck!

What The Hell..

2010-09-16T12:22:00.002+08:00

All I've been praying for when it comes to finals is that no 2 papers in one day.

Life is totally a joke. How many FML can I say to un-FML? Seriously, what the hell.

And my blardy wisdom tooth is causing my gum to hurt. I can't chew. Brushing my teeth is a pain. Even swallowing is a problem.

Life is such a joke.

Is This The Reality That You Want?!

2010-09-14T23:00:00.003+08:00

Theres news that SM Town Live 2010's last stop will be Tokyo in January.

Once more, I shall say, LIFE IS A FREAKING JOKE!

LIKE WHAT THE HELL?!

Of all the things, Singapore Kpop Night had to have my boys and SNSD and Big Bang and FT Island and another 2 groups and then bring another extra group over.

Of all the things, SM Town has to stop right at Tokyo, which is a place that I can't blardy afford to go if not it would screw up the whole of next year!

Of all the thing, my current semester is my final semester. Why can't I finish one semester earlier?

Seriously, LIFE IS A TOTAL JOKE!

Like JongHyun always say, "IS THIS THE REALITY THAT YOU WANT?!"

Raya Treats!

2010-09-05T12:15:00.006+08:00

Everything on my blog has been so revolved around Kpop lately. I shall apologize for not being able to hide my love for it. =D

It’s Hari Raya soon~~~

For all my Malay friends (and none Malay friends as well), I’ve got something sweet for you. Sharing is caring, right? *wink*

What do you people need during the festive season when you balik kampung?

Talktime talktime and more talktime. I mean seriously, going back to hometown is dead boring especially if your hometown is like mine, no internet/computer/aircon..etc.

Or for those of you, who are in a relationship, must sweet talk every morning/afternoon/night. This is definitely a relief for you.

In conjunction with Ramadhan and Aidilfitri, starting from 1st September until 31st October 2010, TM is offering extra 20% talktime automatically credited into your account when you activate or reload your iTalk card from the mentioned time horizon!

Nice right? Why DiGi don’t offer additional talktime one? Only give for those who reload RM100++. Why they think I have so much money to reload is it?

Remember that it is between 1st September and 31st October 2010 only! Don’t miss out!

Also, TM online contents can now be purchased using your iTalk! Go check it out yourself at these websites:

• HyppTunes (http://www.hypptunes.com.my/)
• E-Browse (http://www.ebrowse.com.my/)
• B-SmartXpress (http://www.bluehyppo.com/)
• Gamezone (http://www.hyppgames.com.my/)
• MUTV online (www.hypp.tv/manutd)

Don’t forget to sign up for iTalkWhoa at http://www.italkwhoa.com/!

아파도 괜찮아요

2010-09-03T20:05:00.004+08:00

The title explains what I feeling right now. Its okay even if it hurts. Its actually SNSD's SeoHyun's song. =]

For an indecisive person, I definitely made a very decisive decision yesterday night..or early morning if you like it since it was pass midnight.

Regarding my previous post, I could have deleted the whole thing in glee. My dad talked to me yesterday night and he knows very well that I'm dying to see my boys. He gave me the green light and at that spur of the moment, I felt like I'm the happiest person on earth.

Then I talked to my brother online about the tickets. Honestly, I think that the price of the tickets are quite expensive for a mere 2 hour concert. But then again, if you think about it, it isn't all that expensive considering that 4 out of 6 of the groups performing are top class in the industry.

And so I told him that I wanted CAT1 tickets which was the most expensive and nearest one. After that, I started thinking abit more rationally.

I have many plans for next year. I have mentioned before that there are 3 things on my list for next year which is Super Junior's SS3 either in Singapore in January or Malaysia in March, SM Town Live in Bangkok or wherever else that they will be heading to and finally Korea for atleast 2 weeks.

These 3 are essential to me. And there might be other events that pop out throughout the year which I might want to go as well. So, going all the way to Singapore a week or 2 before my finalsand paying so much seems abit irrational.

My brother then said this, "I'd rather watch SNSD for 20 minutes than have 3 hours with SuJu for SS3"

Needless to say, I couldn't agree more but in my case I said, "I'd rather watch my boys for 5 minutes than have 3 hours with SuJu"

I was going back and forth on whether to go or not to go. And I actually came to a conclusion that I'll sit this concert out. My brother also said that it would be better to just wait for fancams.

For the first time I felt that my brother is right. I told him that I didn't want to miss SM Town but the Bangkok stop may not happen since the political state is still not stable. He said that I will definitely get to see my boys, its just a matter of when and where. Phillipines, Taiwan, HongKong, Malaysia, etc. theres definitely a place where they will go.

And he said something that woke me up. "SHINee hasn't even have a world tour yet"

My boys haven't actually had a concert yet. Their own concert. I realised then that I will definitely be able to see them soon. SNSD took roughly 3 years after debut to hold their first Asia tour. My boys have just passed the 2 years mark this May so it will be soon that they will go on tour. I promised myself at that point that I will be there..at the first stop, which most probably is Seoul.

So, I finally told him that I'll give Kpop Night a miss. Saying that I'm not going when I am allowed to go is very much harder than saying it when I'm not allowed to go.

I felt a sudden relief and thought that its fine. I started tearing when I listened to SHINee's Life that night though. I cried myself to sleep.

I woke up a happier person and thanks to Andy Tham for the clear and stable fancam he recorded of my boys arriving at LA's airport this morning. It totally made my day.

I told my dad about not going just now and he asked me why. I couldn't answer because I don't exactly know why either. And that was when MTV was showing FT Island right after SHINee's AMIGO. So, I guess I was abit emotional because the tears came.

Seriously, I can't believe I made such a decision. But atleast now my plans for next year are still in place and I can spend some money on SM Town goodies to console myself! I'm going to buy myself a birthday present! <3

Stabs from one of Life's Joke

2010-09-02T09:36:00.003+08:00

Life is a total joke, seriously.

When you think it will never happen, it happens in an even more unbelievable way.
When you think it can't be any worse, it goes beyond worse and ultimately beyond the worst.

My heart ached when I saw the details of the Singapore Kpop Night Live on the 23rd October yesterday night.

I thought that the ticket sales will start end of the month or atleast after my finals timetable came out. But it had to be this weekend. I thought that when my finals timetable came out and I could tell myself that its too near my finals, so I'll have no choice but to give up this once in a lifetime opportunity. Its a mere consolation to myself, to make myself feel better.

But things don't always go your way. And now I have to give it up because I don't have the guts to ask my dad.

I totally felt the stab in my heart when I typed 'not going' in reply to my brother who will be queing up for his ticket.

People who are not in a fandom, who are not passionate about something cannot come close to understanding what I'm feeling right now. To these people, I am overreacting to the maximum.

But ask those who share the same love that I have for someone or something, ask those who are in a fandom and are trying to collect every single thing that is related, ask those who jump at the sight or the sound of the people who hold the same names..they would understand what it feels like..what I'm feeling right now.

I've been telling myself its okay since I'll definitely be going for SM Town Live sometime next year. Eventhough there will be no BigBang and FT Island, I can still see my boys for a whole 6 hours together with SNSD, SuJu, BoA, F(x), DBSK and the rest of the SM family.

But things are not going as amazingly as I have planned. MinHo mentioned one of the stops will be Bangkok but with the current situation of bombings and stuff there, it will probably be a repeat of the SNSD's concert which I was supposed to attend in July.

I can't miss this chance but the only other places that I know they will definitely be heading to is Tokyo and Shanghai. What if they say the tour is done after the Shanghai concert? Where will that leave me hanging? Tokyo is too expensive for me. If I were to attend the one in Tokyo, I'd probably have to cancel my Korea plans and SS3 in Malaysia and I don't want to compromise that.

I guess I'll have to check out Shanghai just to make sure I don't miss a thing.

I'll probably be emo-ing alot til the day of the concert..where I feel like I'll just lock myself in my room and cry then wait for fancams and watch them while crying. This will be their 3rd time in Singapore and I'll be missing it again! 3 freaking times!

The pain is even more crucial since they are just 5 hours away from me..or even 30 minutes or less if by plane. How ironic is that?

Life is a total joke, seriously.

PS: I'm warning you people who don't understand what I'm feeling, DO NOT ATTEMPT TO PROVOKE ME BY JOKING ABOUT THIS MATTER! I will seriously beat the crap out of you or totally ignore you or breakdown right in front of you if you touch on this matter. I've said this before and I'll say it once more, to you its a joke and it doesn't matter, to me its a sensitive issue and even if I look like I'm laughing you should know better.

Why Must This Happen To Me?

2010-08-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

You know what..Life is totally a joke.

My brother SMSed me all the way from Singapore just now saying "Go online. You gonna die when you read the news."

My heart pumped so hard and I had a feeling it wasn't something that I want to know about. Then I thought to myself, "Don't tell me SHINee is going to be at the 23rd October 6 Kpop groups concert in Singapore".

I mentioned in my 4Minute & BEAST post that Singapore will be having an epic Kpop concert with 6 Kpop groups on the 23rd of October this year. And I also mentioned in huge letters that I hope no SM Town groups will be there.

Guess what. MY BOYS ARE GOING TO BE THERE! Like what the hell!!

And not only that, SNSD is one of them. NOT ONLY THAT! Big Bang and FT Island is going to be there too! This is one super epic concert! Where on earth can you find all of them in 1 concert since Big Bang and FT Island are from different companies from SHINee and SNSD.

When I saw the news, I straight away started crying. Its like a total joke. These 4 groups are on the top of my list. Another group which is involved is the new Infinite and theres one more group which has not been announced yet. Ticket price has not been announced yet.

I can feel my heart dropping. If only it was in September, my chances of going would be higher but October 23rd, eventhough its a Saturday, its really close to November. And my finals is in November. ARGHH!!!

SERIOUSLY! WHY THIS YEAR?!?! CAN'T THEY WAIT A LITTLE LONGER?!

I can guarantee myself for Super Junior's SS3 in Malaysia because its in March next year. I can guarantee myself for one of the SM Town Live stops because there will be a few stops next year. But this?!?!!?

My brother asked me to skip it and wait for SM Town instead but seriously, how can I? Its so near to me and with my boys performing!! And SNSD which I missed due to the Bangkok drama! And when can I watch Big Bang and FT Island!!!

I'll brave myself to ask my dad when they announce the ticket price. I hope we can get tickets since its a total epic concert and loads of overseas fans will definitely come and not to mention the crazy Singapore Kpop fans!

Sigh. I'll go continue crying now. Bye.

SHINee - Fly High

2010-08-25T13:01:00.002+08:00

I believe that we have to grab on to every opportunity that comes to us..even if it means embarassing yourself a little.

Ignore me. =]

Assignments~ woot~~

My First Kpop Live Performance

2010-08-18T00:29:00.007+08:00

Annyeong~!!
Okay, I shall not be lazy and blog about my awesome experience. As some of you may know, I headed down to Singapore last Friday (13th August 2010). It was my first time travelling by bus, first time travelling to Singapore by bus and first time travelling alone. I've always wanted to try travelling alone and my 5 hours bus ride gave me an insight of what I might experience next time.

Boarded the 10.45am First Coach on the day. Was very excited yet nervous because afterall, it is my first time. Wanted to sleep but couldn't sleep. I was dead bored on the bus, seriously. All I had was my phone, the internet and my ipod. I was lucky Digi's maximum WAP charges is only RM5 per day but there isn't really much to do online with a phone. Cannot stream videos. =(

Reached Singapore about 3.45pm. My bro came to pick me up before heading back to his place. I was sweating so much because of the walking and the train ride. Waited for the fan to blow me dry before heading out to the venue.

The event is actually the unofficial opening ceremony of the Youth Olympic Games 2010. I seriously didn't know. I thought the celebrities going there were to promote the new Samsung phone because it seems that you can only get passes if you buy the phone.

My brother got 2 VIP passes from his friend who bought the phone so we got to go for FREE! =D

When we reached the place, we already missed the first performance. Alot of people were gathered, coming in and out of the seated area. From what I saw, it was obvious that everyone was there only for the Korean acts which was later in the night. Alot of those who have VIP passes came really early to book their seats before heading out for food.

They gave out free Coke! So most of them left their Coke bottles on the chair to book their seats. If it was in Malaysia, people would just throw the bottles away and streal the seats but hey, we were in Singapore, which is a good thing.

VOX; a group of 4 individuals who play songs with violins, viola and a cello. Very bad stage presence. They come and go without pulling any attention. The only time when the audience noticed them was when they played WonderGirls' Nobody. The power of Kpop. *Smirks* When they finished their performance and got off the stage, I asked my brother if that was a performance or just a practice session. Thats how insignificant they were.

Then came the torch lighting ceremony. The old man there is Lee Kuan Yew! The person from our history textbook! I seriously thought people in history textbook no longer exists. I am lame, I know. Got a few speeches and all those bla bla things that nobody cares about.

Next up was Urban Drun Crew. They just play drums. Quite interesting at parts but then it got a tad bit boring since its the same thing over and over. Got no hot guys somemore. I love hot drummers! Rawr~

Then it was a Singaporean band called Electrico. When they were about to perform their last song, they asked the audience to stand up and dance to the song, which nobody did. The funniest thing was that everybody stood up when we saw 4Minute & BEAST's van approach the venue! Just the van, not even the idols themselves! Seriously must have been embarassing for them since it happened while they were halfway performing. >_<

It took awhile before the stage went out. Those who had the 'Guest' passes started climbing over to the VIP area, which honestly pissed me off. Not only me but majority of those who had the VIP passes. It was unfair. And they kept going to the front and standing around that the securities had to come and ask them to sit down if not the show won't start.

When they finally settled for the back seats of the VIP area, the show started. 4 Minute were up first!

The girls were amazing. The thing about Kpop is that, these people are not just about the looks and the bod. Their live performances are as good as the recorded ones, if not better. They know how to interact with the crowd and bring the mood up.

I screamed like any other fangirls and fanboys would. I seriously love 4 Minute. Their songs are great and catchy. I didn't learn the fanchants but who cares? When you have watched so many music performances on tv and YouTube and heard fanchants for other groups, you're bound to know the way around it.

I had my camera clicking all the way without me even looking at what I was taking. It would be a waste to stare at the camera wanting to get nice pictures when you are seeing them in the flesh! It didn't matter whether you're a guy or a girl, young or old, a loyal fan or not, you'd definitely scream like theres no tomorrow. I know I did.

After a few songs and loads of screaming and singing along, they had a short interview. I was able to gulp some water and rest my throat for a minute or two. We sang the birthday song for SoHyun in both English and Korean for her 16th birthday. Yes, shes that young!

The performances continued after the interview. They didn't perform 'I My Me Mine' which I don't know why but I'm guessing its because they didn't have their back up dancers to do the 'click click' part. But I'm so happy they performed 'HuH'! I super love that song!

After the girls were done with their amazing stage, the 6 boys of BEAST came up so screaming fangirls! As you can see, taking pictures of the boys were not easy with all the fan made cards in the air. And my camera battery was running out in the middle! My brother said that there was going to be joint performances of the 2 groups so I saved my remaining battery for it, which it didn't happen! Hmmphh!

BEAST came to Malaysia a few months ago but I missed out on them. I'm so lucky to be able to see them in Singapore. Another group that I really like! They were playful yet professional. I felt as if my voice has died after 4 Minute but I was wrong. I screamed just as much for the boys as I did for the girls.

Saying that the night was great is an understatement. It was my first time witnessing a Kpop live act and I'm super lucky that I get to see 2 groups on my first time. After the disappointment of SNSD's posponed Bangkok concert, every second towards the performance got me anxious. Will it be another disappointment? Will something happen again?

But everything went on smoothly. I was sweating so much but it didn't matter. I almost lost my voice that night but it didn't matter. Kpop acts are worth witnessing over and over again because they never fail to impress you. Listening to their songs now, I have only one thought in my mind which is 'I can't wait to see them perform again'.

I have fulfilled 2 of my many wishes! And then the next day, I missed my bus. The traffic was bad and eventhough I left my brother's place 1 hour earlier for a 25-30 minutes journey to the bus place, I was late by 5 minutes.

Went back home on Sunday morning instead. And the bus was 15 minutes late! Like what the heck.. -.-

Anyway, it was an extraordinary experience. CN Blue will be in Singapore this weekend for fansign and showcase. I can't go. ='(

And you know what I heard?! 26th October 2010, 6 Kpop groups will be having a concert in Singapore! Omg..I'm quite sure my dad won't allow me to go so I'm praying hard that none of the groups are those that I want to see. And that means PLEASE NOBODY FROM SM TOWN!

PLEASE NO SHINee, SNSD, SUJU, KARA, BoA!! If not I sure cry like hell. PLEASE NOT THIS YEAR!!!!!

All Smiles Lately ^_^

2010-08-11T19:28:00.003+08:00

Been awhile since I did a proper update. Its almost the end of week 4! Crazy how time flies this semester.

I'm still completely blur about my units because of the terrible lecturers and tutors but I think I'll be able to manage. Its *fingers crossed* my last semester and it seems that my friends and I are slacking a tad bit more than usual. Probably because of last semester's over-studying. =P

Anyway, I met up with a few Malaysian Shawols from SHINee World Malaysia forums last Sunday at The Gardens to pick up my Version A album.

Was supposed to take KTM from Subang Parade down but my parents decided they wanted to go for a walk in MidValley and so in the end, I didn't get to experience taking the KTM alone. =(

This is probably my first time meeting up with people from a forum. I have always stuck to my rule on not meeting up and giving out my number to online friends. It was pretty fun, honestly. It was great meeting people whom have the same interest as I did, since the friends I have do not share my love for Kpop. The only people I know who loves Kpop are some old schoolmates and my brother. =/

It was fun seeing them get excited over the same things like Jjong's bare back and it amazed me to see them being able to throw out some moves from the choreography on and off and all the merchandise a few of them got when they were in Korea. There were no awkward moments at all, which is surprising to me. =]

Met up with Pui Yee after that for lunch since she was working part time in The Gardens. Had Korean food. I ate kimchi dwenjang jigae! Anderson was supposed to have lunch with us but he ffk-ed us with an SMS in the afternoon, like 1 hour before we were supposed to meet. Tsk tsk.

Went to look for my parents after everything was done and they were having lunch in Tony Romas. I was full but decided to taste Malaysia's Tony Romas which uses beef instead of the original pork ribs. I could still remember savouring Tony Romas for the very first time during my most recent Singapore trip.

Without a doubt, pork ribs rules beef ribs. The taste was abit similar but the texture of the meat was obviously, totally different. I wouldn't suggest going to Tony Romas in Malaysia if you have already tried the pork ribs elsewhere.

This is what I call the 'imitate Jjong's pose' pose. Hahas. I didn't get MinHo photocard but I got JongHyun. It seems that out of all the Version A albums that the forum ordered, only 2 of them had MinHo photocard. From what I know, most of the MinHo went to Singapore and the Jjong and TaeMin are in Malaysia.

So, thanks to SHINeeShawolsSG, a Singapore based SHINee fan blog, I have managed to arrange a meet up with an SG Shawol who wants to give up her MinHo photocard for a Jjong photocard! I'm so happy~~~

Owh, if you didn't know, I'll be heading to Singapore on Friday for 4Minute and BEAST showcase! KYAAAAA~~~

My first time taking a bus alone. My first time taking a bus to Singapore. My first time seeing Kpop groups! I'm dying from excitement! I love 4Minute and BEAST! I hope the girls perform 'HUH' because I super love that song! And I get to see Yoon DuJun! Okay, I shall stop.

Will blog when I'm back. Love lots!

2010-08-07T12:57:00.001+08:00

If all things go well, I'm going to fulfill two of my many wishes.

And I'm still praying for my MinHo photocard when I open my Ver A tomorrow!

Tokio Hotel MTV WorldStage vs MinHo Dream Concert

2010-08-04T09:52:00.002+08:00

I didn't go for MTV World Stage 2010 which was last Saturday but I something immediately struck me when I saw the picture from today's Star newspaper.

Tokio Hotel. See that 2nd guy from the left with crazy eyeliner? I don't know his name and don't really care because I'm not a fan. Lolx. But see him?

Full body shot. See properly, okay? Kpop fans and Shawols, don't you think his outfit looks familiar?

SHINee's Choi MinHo (or MY MinHo =P) wore the janitor jumpsuit earlier this year during Dream Concert. Maybe that fella from Tokio Hotel saw and thought he would look good in the same thing? Hahas.

The janitor outfit that I didn't really like but he totally rocked it.

And I'm sorry to say this but my flaming charisma rocked it much better than that guy from Tokio Hotel. =D

OMG..Its Week 3!

2010-08-02T17:23:00.002+08:00

Week 3 of my final semester. *fingers crossed*

Treasury Management is scary. Calculations seem to be surfacing bit by bit now.

International Financial Management is boring. Its like doing Financial Management again. The problem is..I only managed a mere Pass for FM. What the hell am I thinking doing IFM anyway?

Business in Asia is very subjective. The topics are diverse and doesn't seem to mean much to me. I don't even see any potential exam questions from the things I'm learning..which is scary.

Economics of Money & Banking is exhausting. My lecturer is from Netherlands and his pronounciation is the most different from all the slangs that I've heard before. His words seem clear at first but then it turns into a ball at the end of each sentence. I attended my first tutorial last week and very unfortunately, he is the only tutor, and it was terrible! His explanation and the question has no relation whatsoever and I didn't even know he answered the question already when he went to the next. Amen.

This semester seems really tiring. It drains energy the way insomnia drains my sleeping time. Sigh.

Cheaper LDF

2010-07-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

LDF = Long Distance Friendship, if you have been wondering.

Since I’m a university student, my topics with friends are mostly regarding our studies and the different tertiary education in different countries. Theres always talk on which uni is better and how much it costs.

My choices after my pre-u in Taylor’s were Melbourne Uni, RMIT, Monash Australia and NUS. At that time, everyone around me was talking about studying in Australia. And since I did South Australian Matriculation (SAM), the things I learned were based on Australia; so naturally, I thought that I would be pursuing my degree there too.

But then reality hits me and I realized that it was too expensive. While some of my friends went over, some stayed back. The group of friends that gather for outings during the holidays grew smaller and smaller. This semester break, Ian Kok came back and only Mandy and I were left in Malaysia to have lunch with him, which is seriously a very sad matter.

You know what, I just realized while typing this that about 97% of my K3 classmates during SAM are currently studying in Australia! How I despise the country for stealing all my friends. Tsk tsk.

We can communicate through the internet but sometimes, maybe because of the time difference, the time that I go online and theirs don’t match. Calling and SMSes would cause your parents’ to erupt when they see your phone bill and it doesn’t help that I’m using prepaid! =/

But now, all my troubles are gone. I can keep in touch with my friends that are in Australia, China, UK, US and even Canada, without having to face my parents’ dark faces due to high phone bills!

And all of this is because of TM iTalkWHOA!

From the 15th of July 2010 to 31st December 2010, iTalkWHOA is offering special promotional rates to the 5 popular destinations mentioned (China, US, UK, Canada, Australia). The call rates are shown below and you can SMS from iTalkWHOA for only RM0.10 per SMS!

Of course, you must be an iTalkWHOA user to enjoy these cheap rates and since iTalkWHOA is a web based portal, you can enjoy the rates wherever you are. Visit www.iTalkWhoa.com for more information. I’m advising you not to miss out on this and remember, it only lasts till 31st December 2010!

Now I can call and SMS my friends overseas without worrying about my phone credit. =] And to you people having long distance relationships, iTalkWHOA certainly made the relationship much cheaper to maintain, don’t you think? *wink*

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Right Now, Its Girls' Generation!

2010-07-24T16:58:00.003+08:00

Few months ago, I remember my brother jokingly said, "Let's go to Bangkok to watch SNSD". That was when I was still not much into the girls.

But then I got hooked onto their songs and dances. And my brother tweeted saying, "Let's get mum to sponsor our tickets". I liked the idea but didn't really think it would happen.

But things were finalized in a blink of an eye. We got permission from our parents and we paid for our concert tickets, booked the hotel and plane tickets on the same day. The feeling was amazing.

I thought that me wanting to go for the concert was just a spur of the moment. I guess it was at that time. But after booking everything, I started watching more of the girls' performances and listened to their songs almost everyday. I started watching variety shows, old and new of the girls. I could recognize the dance moves and could even identify their voices without watching. I started to really love the girls.

I was really looking forward to the concert. It was my biggest motivation to do well in my finals. I have even come to the point of defending the girls from insults thrown by antis, even if they are Shawols. This is because I know that besides their looks and body, the girls have great talent in singing and dancing and variety shows as well. I've come to learn that the members all have amazing vocals and I was anticipating the concert that was scheduled tonight, supposingly. But then it was posponed indefinitely because of the war in Bangkok.

In short, it was supposed to be a Pink Saturday. A very Pink Saturday, supposingly.

Lucifer; A Comeback Far From Perfect

2010-07-23T22:44:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I have to tell you that, SHINee (pronounced as 'shai-nee'/shiny) is a contemporary boy idol group and contemporary means that they would be trendsetters.

Alot of Kpop fans and even Shawols (short for SHINee World, SHINee's fandom) complained about the boys' new hairstyles for the new album, Lucifer. It is definitely a big shock to everyone, including me, considering how much they changed. Shawols however, stood by their boys strongly on the concept and all 13 songs from the 2nd full length album, which was released on July 19th 2010.

Some Kpop fans on the contrary, didn't like the concept and the songs. I admit that the Lucifer album is not as good as their previous albums and mini albums but I applaud Lucifer just as much as I would, the rest of them mainly because I see it in a different way. Where non-Shawols just look for the music, I looked at what they have become and how much they have changed.

5 boys started out with the clean cut look, fresh and innocent. They debut with Noona, Neomu Yeppo (Replay) on the 25th of May 2008 with leader Onew (1989), main vocalist JongHyun (1990), rappers Key and MinHo (1991) and youngest member TaeMin (1993). Yes, they are that young!

And the above picture is what they looked like back then when promoting Replay and another song, A.Mi.Go.

Then came their 2nd mini album, Romeo, with the title song of Juliette and also promoted Love Like Oxygen.

Both songs are simple and young. The melody was kept to the minimum and their vocals were clear. Their dance steps were fresh and swift. I really loved watching their performances. They look like they were floating on stage because their steps were so light.

They totally set the trend for colorful skinnies. If its about colorful skinnies, its got to be SHINee. (Well, for girls its SNSD because they wore skinnies for promotions of Gee) But really, they brought it to fashion and I can say with confidence that no other boy groups have worn colorful skinnies and if they did, nobody wears it better than SHINee.

My boys made me think that colorful skinnies don't look gay. Juliette won 1st place on the day of their comeback! They were so thin back then, even I felt intimidated. They were practically thinner than the girls!

They then returned with their 3rd mini album, 2009 Year Of Us, which was the time where my love began. The changes in hairstyles were obvious besides Onew. Maknae TaeMin got a lighter brown and began his mushroom days, Jjong dyed his hair blonde and brown, which to me looks like a chicken because of the 2 tone and the spikes, MinHo with longer hair and had waves and curls and Diva Key sporting jet black hair with strips of green..purple..red..

Okay, about Key's hair, I'm not sure. Throughout the promotions of Ring Ding Dong and Jojo from their 3rd mini album, he changed the colors of the strips a few times. All I know is that people complained about it first but then start complimenting him. I hated it at first but I loved it after.

You see what I mean by weird hair? Anyway, RDD was much stronger than the previous Replay, A.Mi.Go., Juliette and Love Like Oxygen. The music was stronger, the concept was darker and the dance projected more impact. They dumped their cute innocent colorful look for red and black. As people commented, they were growing up from being boys to men.

In my opinion, I would always love this album the most because it was when I started my whole Kpop craze. I love RDD and Jojo and I love ponytail MinHo! Funny how they return with a strong concept but are still so cute when not performing or when they make mistakes on stage.

And so, after 9 long months, they came back with their 2nd full fledge album, Lucifer, which caused alot of controversy due to its name. Religious people find it disturbing because Lucifer is the name of the devil. I think they are overreacting.

Their hairstyles were stepped on. Key's fans started cursing the hairstylist who shaved half his head off. People talked about Onew's weird center parting hairstyle and TaeMin's ponytail. Not much was on MinHo and JongHyun.

Not only that, some Shawols even put the blame on MinHo for the delay of SHINee's comeback due to his calf injury that he picked up during the recording of Dream Team. Some said that he should give up Dream Team and focus on being a member of SHINee.

And then came sarcastic remarks saying that it was a miracle Onew is fit and healthy for the comeback. These remarks were because Onew cracked his teeth in the past and the boys had to delay their Juliette comeback.

SHINee's comeback was far from perfect. In the end, MinHo had to sit down and sing for their Music Bank comeback stage earlier today and get screwed by some people because of the bad cameraman, who kept focusing on him instead of the other 4 boys who were dancing!

Honestly, eventhough I'm MinHo biased, I felt abit annoyed with the cameraman too but why do people even blame the boy when all he did was sit down and sing?! I really don't understand how some people can call themselves Shawols and give out ridiculous comments and insults like these.

About the concept and the hairstyles, SHINee is contemporary. Since when have they not change themselves completely for a comeback? Its just that this time its more serious, mature, stronger and extreme. I think Key rocked his hairstyle and TaeMin looks hot. It is also very obvious that SM Entertainment is trying out the dark concept this year. Just look at the other SM family members, SNSD with Run Devil Run, F(x) with NU ABO, SuJu with Bonamana and now SHINee with Lucifer.

About MinHo and his injury, I can guarantee you this, even if I do not know the boy personally, he would be the last person on earth to want this to happen. MinHo is athletic and very active. His desire to win and his never give up attitude is so obvious if you watch Dream Team. Would a guy like that actually not feel bad about delaying the comeback of his members? As if he doesn't feel bad enough, people blame him for it just because he is not their bias. And asking him to give up Dream Team is like telling a Shawol that she can't be an ELF too! Or like saying you have to choose to have either your friends or your partner. It doesn't make sense!

About Onew. I was totally speechless. Yes, he can appear clumsy at times. He trips, he falls, he hits himself. Its like body gags that most of the time we laugh at but do you really think he wants to hurt himself that way? And for people to say that its a miracle that he wasn't the one delaying the comeback again because of an accident in the past, wouldn't that hurt him so much if he found out? Seriously, how selfish and inconsiderate can people be?

Sigh, I'm so angry that I don't even remember what this post was supposed to be about! Anyway, I love their comeback. Its new, its different, its so much stronger and they look very much hotter. They lost some weight but gain alot of muscles. The songs may not be awesome but I think that it potrays each members' voices very well. They have grown and their voices have mature. Even MinHo's rap is so much stronger.

This new album really surprised me. Besides the hairstyles and concept, I was more amazed at their ability to sing such a strong song. I seriously would have never thought they would be able to come out with a song like this. And I never thought that I would see the rest of the members (besides Key) having eyeliner and totally rocking it. It may not be the best, but it certainly deserves compliments.

I hope my flaming charisma would recover fast and recover well so that he can dance together with the rest. Their performance was abit weak today and Jjong's voice was abit off.

Before I end my very long winded and messy post with no directions whatsoever, I want to say that I am very disappointed about the Bangkok concert. I am supposed to be in Bangkok now, probably meeting up with MYSones and the concert is supposed to be tomorrow. Its painful you know. So near yet so far. Its like buying a very expensive thing that you have been wanting for a very long time and then it turns out that it sucks.

Atleast I got to watch my boys' comeback stage as a consolation. Sigh.

SHINee 2nd Album LUCIFER (FULL)

2010-07-19T17:01:00.003+08:00

I wanted to just choose my favourite few to post up but I can't because all 13 songs are really growing on me the more I listen. To those who haven't check it out yet, you have to listen!

However, I'm not sure if non Shawols would appreciate it as much at first. But this album has shown how much each member's vocals have matured and even the lyrics are more mature. Compared to their Replay and Julliete days, Lucifer has taken a 360 degrees change, which is not surprising since SHINee is a contemporary boy group and has always made changes in all their comebacks.

Shawols (SHINee World), SHINee's fans, have waited 9 long months for this album andd it is seriously worth it. First comeback stage would be this Friday's Music Bank live! Be sure to watch it on KBSWorld (Astro Channel 303) at 4.50pm to 6.10pm! My boys have never let me down before. And I'm sure they won't this time either.

I won't be surprised if they win 1st on their comeback day like Julliete did. And get to see Jjong cry again! =D

Results + Family Gathering

2010-07-16T13:02:00.003+08:00

Results are out!

It actually came out yesterday. I was so frantic the whole day. I've never been so afraid of my SMS tone before and it somehow seemed like there were more SMSes coming in yesterday than on usual days.

Usually the results will be out in the evening and I will get the SMS around 5.30pm but yesterday was really late. I left home around 7pm and headed for a family dinner at Overseas, Jalan Imbi. I was wondering why the SMS didn't come and if I registered for the SMS results properly or not.

I messaged Pui Yee and she said that she hasn't gotten her SMS either. I messaged Anderson and he said that results have already came out and he just received his SMS. At that moment, I was both worried and annoyed. Why isn't mine coming? That feeling of wanting to know yet hoping that it will never come, that was what I felt at that point in time.

That was also when all of a sudden, I received it. Because I was smart enough to save the number as 'Monash Results' after my first year first semester, I had the choice to open it or to leave it. I chose to leave it.

I practically had a panic attack while in the car. My hands were cold yet my palm was sweaty. I was shivering all over and I couldn't sit still. So many things went through my head but I couldn't seem to decipher what I was really thinking. I felt like throwing up. No joke, no exaggerations. It was that serious.

I reached the restaurant and sat down. I knew that I have to open it anyhow and so I did.

Investments & Portfolio Management D70

Internation Banking & Finance C61

Lending Decisions D71

Macroeconomic Policy C66

I cried immediately. Its not much that I was happy that I cried, but probably the maximum amount of relief that gushed over me. And it was embarassing that my parents and my aunt and grandma was there to see but I really couldn't help it. Luckily I had no make up on, lolx.

This was the first time I read every single word in all 4 of my textbooks. This was the first time I spent so much time cramming formulas and diagrams into my head. This was the first time where I felt my head went totally blank that I had to leave some questions unanswered.

I remember coming out from the exams totally in despair. While my friends talked about their answers, I felt so left out because mine was totally different. This was the first time that I felt that I may fail all 4 of my units. But I didn't. And it truly is a miracle to me. I managed not only to pass all 4 of them but also get 2 Credits and 2 Distinctions.

What can I say, I survived another semester. And my last one begins on Monday, where I will again face the fear and the pressure of succeeding. How did the rest of you do? I've heard some good results and some not so good ones.

I hate the feeling when you tried so hard and you still can't make it. I understand that feeling well. It discourages you and makes you think, why try so hard when in the end it won't turn out well. It makes you think that you've lost all hope because eventhough you've tried your very best, things still went the wrong way, so what else can you do?

I can't tell you that hard work bears good results, and I can't tell you that you won't regret even if you don't achieve what you want after trying your best but all I can say is that, it is not wrong to fail but it is a crime to give up.

Let's fight on for that piece of paper. We've come a very long way now. I'll see you guys when the new semester starts.

Love lots.